ooohh,its' rainbow fish!! ;x

Not complaints, just stressed

I had this very sad feeling after browsing through some old photos. The only place where I really got to enjoy myself became a nightmare just a few weeks after I returned. That was probably the last time I will feel so carefree. All the uni and scholarship app seem like they never end. I am still in a dilemma over my second choice after so many days of research and running around the NLB. Out of pure confusion and desperation, I discussed it one last time with my parents and sent the application without a second look >.< blehh 1/6 done with just 5 more days left before I fly off.

I made up my mind about something last night and it got me sleepless for 3 hours. I didn't know it was that hard for me esp when I am supposed to be good at this. Haha maybe I've deceived myself again. I don't think anything is able to budge me.. and guess what I had a chance to testify it this morning. Well the results are positive! :)

With one of the big things down and a successful kickstart for another, I'm left with just army and the trip. Army enlistment date better be good.. or else I'm gonna be screwed with all the decision making once I come back >.<

One last wish for the trip to be enjoyable and tomorrow to be a good day!

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

A new start

I'm finally ready to pen this down. A lvl results weren't that great, three As but my most confident subject had to be a B. The hardest part of all this is the 30 minutes that I had to endure while waiting to collect my results. Thoughts didn't just race through my mind.. they sprinted in and out of my brain! I saw sad faces and some really overjoyed ones. I told myself I must act cool about all this but somehow everyone around me felt the stress inside me. People came over to tell me to chill and friends tried to assure me I'll be okay. I thought about the horrors of a disappointed face on Mrs Leo's face and all the people asking me after that. I was the 2nd last in my class to take my results so you can imagine how disturbing it was to endure all that. As it was going to be my turn I prayed to god.. I didn't pray for a great cert. (strangely) but instead I wished he give me strength and courage to face whatever I get (be it Bs or Cs). Fair enough, I got a C and a B but I'm happy I managed to do well for the other three subjects.

I went to SMU to attend some business talk but it was hard for anyone to squeeze in so I walked around the uni fair asking about the different courses. Social science didn't sound as loser as I thought and business course is really cool. If I don't get into the course I want I may consider business :)

What's more intriguing is that I've taken up reading because of a chain of events. Reading was so distant for me but I guess its never too late to restart something good :) Now that so much has happened and I've already skipped work without a proper approval from the big shots I guess I'll finally make my exit by next week. I need time to sort out my thoughts and decide on what I want so working is definitely not going to help. Maybe I'll take up tuition to earn some good pocket money :D

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..