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The last time I post before A lvls

I've been trying to log in to this acct for super long but I forgot my gmail pass. There is just so much I wished to blog about over the past few months cause everytime I see something really thought provoking I'd like to express it out here.

I realised that I am really a very emotive person, who gets really affected by the tiniest thing. I was returning home after bball one night and I saw this old aunty who manages a fruit stall near my house. I used to visit her every morning last time when I was in primary 4 with my mom and I always played around that area of the wet market. She has grown much older and there is this blank look on her face when she saw me. All of a sudden, my emotions gushed out as I felt extremely sympathetic towards her cause her life is really hard and I felt that I should help her in some way. Its really weird for me to feel so because apparently we were nothing more than mere strangers and it soon dawned upon me that I was just a tiny being in this world who is trapped in my own struggles. I couldn't even control my own destiny let alone help another person. After all, everyone will ultimately live their own lives and they will only have the capacity to resolve their own problems so who am I to stand out and say that I can improve another person's life? With all these conflicts in me, I really needed someone to share my feelings with at that moment but I realised that there was no one in my friend list who would be as foolish as me to develop such thoughts. I'd be mocked..

The second emotional roller coaster I had happened when I studied alone in school till around 10 plus alone. That day was quite a weird one as it was the end of all the major papers for PCME students (except chem and the MCQs) so the buddies in my study group left early. I had a totally different experience that night without company. I took a short walk around the school and it was almost empty except a few couples doing their own stuff in a corner. During that walk I thought about how soon it'll be that I'll graduate and leave this place where I spent my 6 years in. It made me reflect deeply upon every happenings since sec1. I really did come very far, and all my failures and accomplishments belong to this place. Although I was merely an insignificant part of this school but it was definitely the most significant thing in my life. That's when I told myself that I'd never forget this place.. and the memories I share with it.

If you are (who happened to visit this dusty place) free then you should check this out. Its really touching.

I felt the title 好一对"狗男女" (sorry if you don't understand Chinese) was really what made this video so very special. Even animals are capable of showing the purest feelings towards each other that some people obviously lack. Its so ironic how many so called 狗男女 (teens in fact) are just wasting their time away flirting and doing those obscene stuff when their ulterior motive is just for pleasure. Well I'm definitely not the best person to make such a comment because I may not understand the feelings of love as well as some of my peers because I've never been in a relationship with an opposite sex. Wouldn't it be more rational to do something more meaningful at a young age?

This video is so touching to me because it makes me feel as if I lost a loved one. I think that when our parents finally leave us, there will never be anyone who can fill up the void in our souls that our parents once occupied. That's why it hurts to grow up..

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..