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Little things in life adds up to what's meaningful in life

There is something changing in me.. I'm behaving so differently from the usual self, I don't get frustrated easily anymore and I think I'm smiling more too! Even my music taste changed haha. This post doesn't even fit the theme of the blog lol!!

I'm learning to enjoy the little things in life.

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Life sucks.. cliche but very true

First of all, thanks to Zhao xuen for helping me escape all my troubles last night! The house party and all the drinking really helped me clear up my worries. I enjoyed it but I know you felt really sucky cause you can't drink yesterday. I shan't talk about what happened after that cause that's quite screwed up.

Secondly, I went for CIP with.. guess who.. Zhao xuen again today at Bishan. We had this he invite me for something to open up and I invited him to something that allow him to return to the society. It was really easy for us cause ZX is really a genius at asking others for favor. We finished the job in less than half and hour and went to watch a movie. The movie wasn't that good though but it was quite an enjoyable time spent with him cause he's a great friend!

Thirdly, I am really very annoyed.. I know some of my friends know why I am so guai but the very reason that is keeping me that way is slowly eroding away. My parents are really very annoying recently (yes I know I shouldn't be talking about this here). Fine I shall keep it short and exclude the details. I feel like I can go and just disappear after A lvls cause apparently I feel like I am totally useless to them after As. Argghh.. I have a lot to say but I don't think I should cause I have already vented.

Lastly, some other thing has been bothering me but I won't talk about it cause its a disagrace to myself. Although it was very immature of me but I am glad that I have some new found energy because of it and those extra energy will push me to work harder and become stronger in the future.

I have a dream, that one day I'll be so proud of all that I've done and I'll look back at my life and tell myself confidently that no one else could have done it better than I had for I've done it my way.

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Basketball time

Prom is over.. I can safely say I didn't not do things that I will regret next time. Firstly, I didn't follow the footsteps of Ng ZX cause apparently he kept thinking about it last night. Then again you many choose to say I no balls but the point is why do something you know you will regret? Secondly, I didn't go clubbing despite the fact that I spent 3 hours near one. Those first time clubbers who came out at around 3 looked really pathetic. Some of them obviously can't drink so its kinda stupid to stuff all the alcohol down and feel like shit after that. Thirdly, I got to take a closer look at some people. Its regrettable that I have known such people for the past few years. Now I kinda make prom sounds really horrible for me, which is quite true except for the occasional mood booster from some friends and the long hours of talk I had with Zhao Xuen.

Slept from 9 am to 3 pm and went for some bball shoot arounds. I recovered from that KFC sickness and I was able to regain my ball sense and make some pretty baskets. Then at night I went bball with some friends and we played full court with the Filipinos. Lost the first game 9-14 and almost won the second with a scoreline of 11-7 before the lights went out. What really annoyed me was that there was no clear conscious in the team to defend. I think what we lacked was team defence. The Filipinos are much bigger than the other 4 of my friends so offensive rebounds are totally impossible with only me and LJY able to contest. I had to shout at my teammates to return for defense after each shot but they are either too slow or they don't bother to. Strictly speaking, my team is just a 3.5 man team cause one guy can't play and one guy is lazy ttm. The Filipinos don't even bother to play 5 man offense on us and that's fking disrespectful. The redemption came when we trashed them in stamina in the 2nd game. We had a couple of good blocks and steals so we kinda equalized on that. All I can say is you need a good team to play good team basketball..

Okay, now I gotta talk about my favourite NBA player, Allen Iverson. I'm really glad he got back to 76ers. Although his debut was spoiled by a loss but it shows that he has matured from the years of switching between teams and almost retiring as a free agent. I think in life we have to treasure opportunities given just like how AI did with this new contract. I hope he continues to play with his heart on the court, play good basketball.

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

I don't complain.. ass

A lvl is over... for everyone. I'm feeling damn bored cause my daily routine of eat gym bball sleep is totally robotic. I don't have my prom clothes yet and I am procrastinating like ever. Luckily some nice soul called LJY is gonna accompany me to get it tommorrow! Now my wallet will have a huge hole. The feeling of having no money.. poor.. penniless dadada sucks. Then again, nothing beats getting into relationshits with people around you.

Let me make this clear. I dislike act-smart people, arrogant people and those the act-friendly ones.. or rather many people. Here's a piece of advice to myself: treasure the real friends.. screw the rest of them. I think I would choose to ignore such people in the future cause its just gonna send me back to the old days where I had to put up a fake front and stuff.. its really disgusting and so damn exhausting. Worst of all, working your brain on all that doesn't burn calories like what L (death note guy) said. Don't be surprised if I choose to ignore you cause you know best why. I know my friends better than anyone does.

Then again there is this other group of people besides those who hate you and those who are fine with you. I find it hard to play along with them cause you don't wanna hurt them unnecessarily neither do you wish to get tied up to them. Most people think I am blessed to have them cause many people out there don't even have one. Well I disagree cause I don't think I need them although I used to feel so deprived of one. I wouldn't mind these people falling into the two categories mentioned previously. My behaviour has lead to many believing I am "a three letter word".. that's not true and screw off if you're scared. I'm perfectly "eight letter word" and I have my reasons for doing so. You call me no confidence, pussy .. you name it.. I don't give a damn cause I lead my life my way.

The time is just not right yet..

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..