ooohh,its' rainbow fish!! ;x

Class chalet!!!

Totally dying from my PT session.. 200 sit-ups 100 pumping 100 squat jumps 50 pull-ups O.O

What to do man!? I feel like I'm gonna get B for PW liao.. 0 (ZERO!!!) dry-run sessions and our 5 min event haven't settle yet :( Tomorrow is the last day to chiong all these and I'm gonna give it my all liao. But but.. I may have to sacrifice service for this.. haiz feel so bad cause I've missed 2 sessions already D:

Yayy!! 6G having its first class chalet on 8/11 at yun nan corner in NUS! I feel so damn excited once I think of it. Hope many can overnight then chiong whole-day-basketball xD. All of a sudden my class seems to be super bonded :O Hope the turnout rate won't prove me wrong =D

31/10

I can feel that something is changing in me today.. I was more tolerant towards everyone today and I even managed to smile at the lady sitting beside me when we looked at each other at the busstop x.x Its quite a feat for me even though my tone was quite edgy towards a certain somebody :P Nevermind, good job for me! Completed the OP script and when the conclusion is done I think my timming should be 准准 5 min and I'll own! Ha.. contrusting attitude from the beginning.

Body aching like hell now but I just can't sleep. I've got a hell load of chores to do since my dad's abroad and I've got to tank everything :S ROARRRRARRRRR!! zzz

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Looking on the bright side

Super nice song by JJ:

泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她
我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

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While walking home alone today.. a question suddenly poped up in my mind: Why am I trying so hard??

Guess what? I don't fucking know..

All I can do is.. try my best to be more optimistic =S

27/10

Got damn sian.. freaking emo. I was so damn depressed the whole day la! Why am I such a loser?! I've got so little compared to others and no matter what I do it just won't work out :( The sucky feeling got worse upon returning from friend's house. I went for some midnight bball and it made me happier cause I got so tired from practising lefthand and crossovers that I lost track of my thoughts. Tried to think postive on my way home.. I'm actually quite blessed because there are so many who are facing more severe problems compared to mine. At least I have a few friends.. I'm promoted.. I have enough money to keep myself =D.. I can do sports so I should treasure all these.

My dad left for China to visit my parents' 媚人 (in other words, without her I won't exist), who is suffering from cancer and her conditions are catastrophic. I feel so bad for not going with my dad because I really want to say a big thankyou to her for making me possible. Now I can only pray for her to hang on tightly to life.. all the best aunty :) Although its just 2 days since his departure, I'm already starting to miss him.. I feel as if I lost him forever and it just hurts me so much :<.. I'll tell him how much I miss him when he comes back and I'll never argue with him le! So much on being a good boy.. I shall start by sleeping earlier tonight :D

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Bad boy

I am such an aloof person.. I think most of my friends think I'm those very on kind but that's because I've been trying super hard to socialise and participate. In doing so, I've told many that as a PE rep, I think that winning is secondary to participation, which is what I value. That's all lies.. I like being alone.. having all the free time for myself.

26/10

Sat infront of the com for the whole day.. got sian at times and mugged a bit(thats how sian it can get). I started watching some super old Jap anime.. well at least it kept me alive =/

Bballed a little at night. Totally lost 3 pointer but my left-side layup improved by leaps and bounds!! In fact, my left hand lay up is faster than my right and thats not good D: During the game, I noticed that most people are defenseless when they are attacked on their right side (which is my left) so I shall spamm left side attacks. Got a little faster today and found out the technique to get past someone and change direction so in total thats a double crossover.

Played several rounds of CS at hanyu's house. ^^ I think I'm a little addicted to it liao :X My 3rd time playing CS so I think the results still quite acceptable lar =) top frag. Hy kept saying I'm pro at headshots but what I felt was that all the headshots were super tyco plus I was just applying what I learnt from seeing him play mah. Oh no, why am I talking about gaming? Damn...

go slp le... zzz

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

I am O.O

Taking up 2 CCAs aint easy.. I've got to train almost everyday except Wed n Sun. Continuous training has taken its toll on my muscles and I'm practically aching from head to toe everyday! God knows why did I even bothered going weights on Wed, which is like my only free weekday =.= @#$

Actually I can't really blame anyone for this because this was my choice before promos.. I'd always wanted to train harder and achieve more so this shall be it, I'll do my best in both wushu and rugby :)

The class's attendance for lectures is damn pathetic lol. Only 9 went for math on Wed (I was amongst the other 14.. bleh). Actually our class isn't the only one experiencing this after-promos truency cause I've heard of worse cases from other classes. After ponning both phy&math for lan.. I felt super bad lar! In fact, it was so bad I mugged for 5+ hours after that :S I even sat through the 4 hours of econs lecture today.. now I feel smarter! :D

Thursday 23/10

This is my first time spending most of my time alone in school. I spent all my free time alone.. sat alone during lecture and at class bench. I must say its really time spent worth it because its rare I get to be alone in school. There was no fear for solitude.. no envy from seeing other people having companionship. I felt so relaxed.. so very contented =)

Our group submitted the finalised WR.. finally!!! Haha, costed us 24+ bucks wth la! Time to work on the I&R and OP liao

Rugby was fun but I've gotta work more on my kicking and passing. I felt damn bad cause I shouted at a few people during training and I think they are quite pissed.. sian my hunger for winning is making me more and more morally bankrupt.. and I don't know how to bring an end to this! :( Pray that I'll change for the better.. before I lose more friends

Aside from a few happy moments.. today's an overall rather sucky day. I'm so damn tired la.. shall sleep now! zzzzz

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

FOS - soccer

Pics from FOS!

caishuai & hongye

shengkun hy wangzhuo lixiang

the proud S6G team =)

sk's shot

cs missed!!!

lx... milliseconds before shot

Credits goes to dujing, who is our camera girl, for her zai pic taking skills (Imba timing)!

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Its a Friday!!

cs, hw, mex

This pic may be very confusing to most ppl.. so let me explain. The ruggers had our 2nd training after promos and it felt ****ing good cause we trained in the rain! All was well till the senior trained our sliding. Both caishuai and I got injured.. damn unlucky. After training mex and I sent him to the clinic to see the doc and he ended up in hospital for an operation today. You may ask, then why wasn't I admitted to hospital since I sprained my leg too? You see.. I injured each of my ankles at least 8 times so its like I have this high speed regen power (I can totally walk normally after resting for a few minutes). Somemore caishuai's injury was really damn serious.. the ankle swelled to the size of some apple lar!

Some of the 6G buddies visited him today and we (I think) managed to cheer him up a bit? xD Get well soon man =) dude I'll visit you again tomorrow.. haha and don't you dare to ZZZ when the team arrive. Smack you ah!!!

Okay time to talk a bit about bball-
These days my shooting fluctuated like mad. It can go so accurate that I shoot down (break the net) the net in the 4th court or miss like 90% of the time. Today's practice in school started off like shit.. I was not even properly attired (half PE half Uniform sucks) and my accuracy was crappy =/ Oh well.. that's okay as long as I manage to reclaim my accuracy at the end of the day. Shot like some real pro just now... ^.^

It was damn funny how the others who were at the court looked at me.. lol.. I kept scoring then this girl who was sitting at the side waiting to join just went off after I hit like seven 3 pointers in a row. The others just looked in disbelief... DAMN diao xD

Okay now what? Mug? Sleep? Slack? Play? I ran out of things to do le?!?!! >:( Lalala screw promos... and everything else... I'm gonna have fun tomorrow! =]

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Come... if you dare

I hate that arrogance.. who are you man? Acting all high and mighty infront of me.. you are not even fit to talk to me for someone of your level. Who are you to give me that shit attitude? Do not assume that my indifference is a lack of power.. its just that you are so insignificant that it would be a waste of time to eliminate you.

I dare you to annoy me again.. for this time, I shall wipe you off the face of Earth. Behold.. and burn the sight of my moves in your mind.. for you who will never surpass me, shall die. Now, disappear.

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

郁闷

人心变得好快.. 好快..

我快赶不上你的改变了..

寂寞却在一旁嘲笑我的愚笨..

最近遇到了许多烦恼的事, 不愉之事让我一天比一天难过。想说的东西许许多多但却找不到知音分享。朋友到底是什么？难道朋友只是利用品而已吗？我心好乱.. 好乱.. 这世界为什么这么复杂? 我为什么这么没用.. 连这一点打击都受不了? 我不喜欢每天上学带着面具.. 我希望能做真实的自己。不知不觉我已经离你越来越远.. 甚至在这乱套了的情绪中失去了自我。

最近有些新体验。有些说出口就会希望有回报.. 没有就会造成失落。失落非常痛苦，体验过的人因该都不陌生吧？费尽全力的忘记却始终难以忘怀.. 盲目的垂死挣扎，只为等待那永远不会发生的奇迹。天下要是没有这么多情感就好了。其实这都是因为我没勇气.. 我怕犯作.. 怕我不够好。请你原谅我不懂逗你开心.. 不懂聼你的心.. 请你相信我我会更加珍惜.. 我会呵护着你。我是个每人要的破玩具.. 我需要一个人静一静

回想着过去我学着譲你更安心

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Sabb: ballroom standard and latin.....

It was rather fun. We learnt Waltz, Latin Cha-Cha, Rumba & Quickstep. 2 days is seriously damn short.. but frankly speaking, I had enough of it x.x I chose this because my PW topic was previously ballroom and hip hop dance.. and guess what? Its down to only hip hop =.= Just imagine my face when I went for the sabb yesterday.. diao

I think the most valuable thing I gained is.. a good friend :D Mr Koh (I should call him bro now).. there is something we as mortals can even change so just live your life and forget about those unhappy past lar! =]

It sucks to have an almost crumbling knee cause you suddenly lose the ability to run.. to jump.. to DUNK (that sucks okay?) I want to feel pro again.. esp the FOS feeling where you can 1 solo 3 ppl team. The shoe empowers me =D dark powers that makes my shooting uber accurate and grants x3 speed.. I'm gonna try out it again tomorrow ^^ I hope there are more ppl poning spring cleaning tomorrow then damn fun liao xD

Okay.. off I go to sleep and hope my muscle aches can all disappear by tomorrow :D

OG outing and 6G outing this weekend =) Shiok.. aha

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

FOS stands for festival of sports

I've got so much to say about FOS!!!

I think 6G soccer was really good.. its the first time we played as a team and we managed to clinch the 4th place. Although its kinda fei to say these now but frankly speaking I felt damn useless. The goalkeeping position of our team is super slack throughout the 1st 4 games.. totally stand there do nothing but when I was faced with penalty kicks I miss 2 and caused the defeat of our team. =( Haiiizzz

I was totally relaxed when I saw the guy kicking it was john heng (wushu mate) then somehow my hand managed to smack the ball but it still went in.. moral of the story: 骄兵必败 ._.

Okay let me start from the morning. Ponned (yes pon) the sabb briefing and played bball.. thats when the frenzy started. So the whole day was like: Bball soccer bball soccer bball soccer bball soccer soccer soccer bball. Think I shot in like 100+ 3 pointers today.. longest spree of 8 in a row. Now my face is totally roasted from the Sun. My performance today wasn't bad cause I think got people watch so 自然而然 more pro O.O The only sad thing was being unable to perform a proper dunk (u know those ball don't touch rim de) and not being champs for soccer. Now I agree life is full of regrets... damnit

As I'm typing I can feel my face burning lar.. like some chaota jiao like that. My knees are failing me after 1 whole day of bball and I'm quite sure I'll doze off like a pig if my bed is near enough xD.

Time to compliment some people.. Firstly: Lixiang.. it appears to me that you are the most hardworking one on the court and I can feel you were putting your 120% into playing and that really touches me =) Secondly: Caishuai.. this is the first time you complimented that my bball skill is ranked 2nd among all non-bball team people :D Haha. I'll work hard to beat wangzhuo and reach the top :) Thirdly: Hongye.. I understand fully how courageous it is to play with injuries and all the credits of playing the defense goes to you! (get well soon man) =] Off course there are many others whom I wish to thank cause you really rock!!! Thanks to 6G ppl who smsed each and everyone of the players. We are sorry we didn't meet expectations and thank you for your support! <3

Looks like Athena won FOS again.. rather expected.. but somehow I aint that excited about it lol. Through this year's FOS I learnt a few things, which firstly is that there are different types of battles.. 1 being matches that are merely about winning or losing while the 2nd is matches where you defend your pride. One needs not be overly serious when facing the 1st type but you go all out for the 2nd type. The second thing I learnt was that you've got to fight harder (for my case.. cause I expected more) for things you want cause no other person is reponsible for your wants. I'll work harder next time.. I promise you

If I'm gonna continue this post... its gonna be endless so I think its best to end here. =) Bye and see you in school tomorrow.

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

pre FOS ranting

Although I would have loved it if I am playing basketball tomorrow.. I'll freaking dunk lar.. but its time to get focused on keeping for the soccer team :D

3/4 of the S6G team went down on Saturday for some practice.. not bad lar considering the huge amount of time most of us spend bballing with the Ares teams. I felt like we can easily trash them if we had played LOL. No wonder all the people were like: your class never play arh? Oh... okayokay :( Haha joking.. I <3 soccer as much as I <3 bball now =|

No gloves for the keeper tomorrow, how? I hope they won't disqualify me D: But its like what lixiang said: if they don't have at least 3 to 4 pairs for loan tomorrow might as well disqualify half the participating teams.. 言之有理 =) We shall see tomorrow >.>

All the best man (saying to myself lar)... bad luck to all the opponents ^^ Jking jking... don't get injured and be happy can le =]

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..

Post Promos Post

Promos are finally OVER!!! I miss my blog.. LOL

SUPA LONG POSTTT!!!

Okay.. there are just so many things to say but I forgot at least 90% of them =.=

Oh yar... Bleach manga! Its getting super boring cause the storyline drags and drags... foreva =\

My idol.. I aspire to be like him (esp attitude wise)

Damn no link..

Promos over... I miss my blog... I like bleach... what else? Oh ya, I think I'm gonna be super busy this holiday so I'll forget about working or gaming liao lol. I promised myself I'll strengthen myself over the holidays so that I'll be able to have some great results for CCAs next year.. I'm going to keep to that promise. =)

Let me switch the topic.. one of the 6G mates recently left us for UK.. we had our farewell lunch with her days before promos. Pizza hut!!! All the best lq :) Do come back often kay? Haha

busy ppl

this pic is here cause the back of my head is visible :P

The men

I see my hair so... there goes this pic xP

lol at chester

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Okay back to post promos.. I suddenly have this fear of my promos results :( I don't usually discuss or think about the paper after test but this time I kept having nightmares of failing like 2 days after each paper. Its like I suddenly get retained and drop all subjects to H-1000.. LOL! I know it sounds damn childish ._.

林宥嘉 sing 沙滩 damn nice :D

Totally entered the holidays mood le.. feeling damn empty cause no tests to force myself to study and damn bored at home now! I have no idea what to do now with so much time suddenly :S Damn SIAN laaaa...... I'll go find something to entertain myself -_-

A sorrow no one can understand nor share..