the emo boy

Not complaints, just stressed

2010-03-22T02:02:00.003+08:00

I had this very sad feeling after browsing through some old photos. The only place where I really got to enjoy myself became a nightmare just a few weeks after I returned. That was probably the last time I will feel so carefree. All the uni and scholarship app seem like they never end. I am still in a dilemma over my second choice after so many days of research and running around the NLB. Out of pure confusion and desperation, I discussed it one last time with my parents and sent the application without a second look >.< blehh 1/6 done with just 5 more days left before I fly off.

I made up my mind about something last night and it got me sleepless for 3 hours. I didn't know it was that hard for me esp when I am supposed to be good at this. Haha maybe I've deceived myself again. I don't think anything is able to budge me.. and guess what I had a chance to testify it this morning. Well the results are positive! :)

With one of the big things down and a successful kickstart for another, I'm left with just army and the trip. Army enlistment date better be good.. or else I'm gonna be screwed with all the decision making once I come back >.<

One last wish for the trip to be enjoyable and tomorrow to be a good day!

A new start

2010-03-07T00:16:00.003+08:00

I'm finally ready to pen this down. A lvl results weren't that great, three As but my most confident subject had to be a B. The hardest part of all this is the 30 minutes that I had to endure while waiting to collect my results. Thoughts didn't just race through my mind.. they sprinted in and out of my brain! I saw sad faces and some really overjoyed ones. I told myself I must act cool about all this but somehow everyone around me felt the stress inside me. People came over to tell me to chill and friends tried to assure me I'll be okay. I thought about the horrors of a disappointed face on Mrs Leo's face and all the people asking me after that. I was the 2nd last in my class to take my results so you can imagine how disturbing it was to endure all that. As it was going to be my turn I prayed to god.. I didn't pray for a great cert. (strangely) but instead I wished he give me strength and courage to face whatever I get (be it Bs or Cs). Fair enough, I got a C and a B but I'm happy I managed to do well for the other three subjects.

I went to SMU to attend some business talk but it was hard for anyone to squeeze in so I walked around the uni fair asking about the different courses. Social science didn't sound as loser as I thought and business course is really cool. If I don't get into the course I want I may consider business :)

What's more intriguing is that I've taken up reading because of a chain of events. Reading was so distant for me but I guess its never too late to restart something good :) Now that so much has happened and I've already skipped work without a proper approval from the big shots I guess I'll finally make my exit by next week. I need time to sort out my thoughts and decide on what I want so working is definitely not going to help. Maybe I'll take up tuition to earn some good pocket money :D

Injuries that led to a mistake and a wrong step

2010-02-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

Siannnnn!! Bought a new pair of bball shoes and played my first game with that on.. but it sucked cause I realised I'm so out of touch ever since working!! Went jogging and injured my left thigh. Then because of the place where I injured it I did something really stupid! I shouldn't have rested at that place and I promise I'll never jog in that direction ever again. Not again.. I really don't like getting injured and I want to regain my fitness.

Okay time for bed.. gotta go for work tmr.

confessions of a drunkard

2010-02-23T01:37:00.005+08:00

So weird huh, I've got so much to say but I want to keep all my words a secret at the same time. As I am typing this I'm currently in a drunk state.. so I dun really know what I may type out. I'm in such a stupid state now cause I just (or you can say a few hours ago) made a very stupid decision. Didn't know I was like this.. totally loser if viewed from a third party.. I can't even do things that I want to do cause I took into consideration how many parties will be affected from my actions. In the end I chose to hurt myself and indeed I hurt myself so badly because of all this. I took all the suffering and I hope it didn't affect anyone at all. This must be some retribution so I'll just swallow it. I was glad some showed concern but it just reminds me of how stupid I was whenever I pretend and lie to them that I'm okay. Those two thought I was angry but actually I'm just sad cause I was making a decision.. A really tough one. In the end I chose to hurt myself and leave you two in confusion. . Whatever man.. who asked god to create me
as someone who likes to think too much (I'd rather be stupid). Oh and I don't like it when people say I look angry when I'm actually sad.

As I was left alone with only alcohol around, it just made my whole world crumbling down. I don't know why it was so strong this time. Maybe I was always soft on the inside and I used to keep bearing with everything by pretending. I don't think anyone know what I'm talking but this blog has become some place for me to write things that will make me feel better (I hope). I don't understand why those two like to do this when I've already made it very clear before. Guess their urge to watch a nice show managed to overpower their true self. Actually its not really their fault but who can I blame except myself for having no courage to declare what I really feel? In the process of trying to make everyone else feel good.. I "accidentally" hurt myself.

This post sounds so stupid that I feel like deleting it right away but I know I've got to post it cause this is the only way I can express how I felt tonight.. the night I lost control of my emotions.

At least I don't get paid in green..

2010-02-21T23:46:00.004+08:00

Working is really tiring.. even for a part timer. I didn't get any off day this week so I'm damn tired!! Plus, its not very nice to get some full timer to shout at you during work just cause you took his fries. At least I was nice enough to show him some concern when he was stressed 2 hours before he flared at me. He seemed like a nice guy and quiet but with him muttering around while doing his order its quite obvious he is on the verge of breaking down. He totally made a wrong move to shout at another hot tempered guy.. worst part is he kept shouting and complaining -.- making a mountain out of a mole hill. Cmon its just a portion of fries and I was nice enough to fry another portion for him. Well I gave me best shot controlling my temper.. he didn't even stop after I did all I could to make it up so he got a taste of my worst vice. Most people who really annoy me to that extent will stop if I shout back but he is a persistent one. Really really wanted to punch his face, stab him and do violence on him but it was this sudden thought (I must not lose control cause I'm already a grown up) that restrained me. It made me look silly just standing there keeping quiet. I totally hate myself cause on one side of the kitchen I've got someone who's asking for a fight and here I've got an internal conflict. At least it ended off with the both of us feeling quite bad (someone commented later on that 2 Bads makes 1 Good) so we are back to square one. Later on Zin talked to me face to face later and it was really inspiring. I've got a lot to learn from him and everyone at TGIF.

Then came the down pour and that's the worst part cause I'm trapped in Heeren!! Made me so damn tired on the MRT that I kept falling asleep standing. My knee kept giving way so I look like some lame guy whose gonna fall any moment. I'm thankful that I got home on time to play ball! Oh and without the cops coming to catch me! I guess I shouldn't really feel lucky tomorrow's the last day of work before I finally get a day off.. cause in return I'll miss my junior's xuan ba

Gonna sleep early today~

I am kehpoh happy?

2010-02-12T20:26:00.004+08:00

I felt damn stupid just now. I've been trying my best to stop noticing dangers and stuff but it just failed all in an instant when i saved this little girl from getting crushed by the lift door. The door detector seemed to fail cause she's too short and she was totally oblivious of the whole thing. So what happened was she was being playful and she stood right in the path of the lift door and it started closing on her. I was damn sleepy and didn't really notice until like when it was about to hit her. At first I tried to tap the door detector but the door siao siao one never stop so I had to drag the freaking door to a stop. I was really damn damn tired after that cause I worked the whole day with flu and I had to do this. Worst part of this is that the mother didn't even bother to say anything to me.. she just kept scolding her bewildered daughter.

Can't believe what would have happened if I wasn't a kehpoh.. at least show some gratitude right? It sucks that I was back to my old self so soon. I felt so shit about doing this for someone like that.

Oh last thing before I go off for ball, I lost my damned phone today at TGI Fridays. I think it slipped off but when I tried calling it it was off >.> yea yea I know someone may have stolen it but that guy must be a tard (might as well take my money as well right) to steal such a noob phone. Oh coming to think of it, my reminder this morning goes: The ****** and ******* at Fridays sux.. GG Oh Oh and someone was nice enough to lend me her phone to make so many phone calls :)

Thoughts and more thoughts

2010-02-08T23:57:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I dunno if I do things because I really care or I'm afraid. Its like parents caring for their kids. Some parents care cause they really care but some care cause when their kids are fine they're at peace. I think I am afraid.

Just days ago, I barely saved a friend my getting knocked down by a bus and it set me into thinking why did I do it. It was just that moment when my reflexes kicked in and my arm went forward to drag him back from the road. He said he won't have died anyway and that was what made me think. I can't really remember when I started to be so concerned over lives around me but I'm quite sure it was in secondary school. Whenever I go to foreign countries my senses tell me to not trust anyone and watch out for any dangers at all times. In the end I don't really get to have much fun. I remember I was always the one who alert people of cars and sometimes drag them away from that split sec of danger. People don't really think that's a big deal but I continued to do it. That's when I started to think why did I really have to protect lives. When I saw the guy wanting to commit suicide I could have left him alone to die. Why was I such a busybody to go fight him and risk getting killed myself? Its not exactly a protective instinct from me but its not exactly fear. I guess it may be a mixture of both?

Had a really boring day on my off day gyming and playing a game at night. You can't really call it a game if I was to judge it cause there was some sort of show going on.. quite lame to talk about it. I find my friends really fun to hang out with but when they use me to see a show it gets quite annoying. The annoyance level isn't up to the level of getting pissed but its won't do anyone good in the end.. esp when it involves a third party. I think I made myself very clear but its up to them to interpret how far am I gonna play along. I'd love to have a bit of fun and probably watch some "shows" but I sincerely don't wish to hurt people (even if in the end I get hurt).. just in case and in any case I don't really care. Jokes are okay but please don't cross the line.

Gotta sleep soon, have gotta work tomorrow..

A new chapter is about to unfold

2010-02-03T00:32:00.003+08:00

I took a look at a friend's blog just now and the posts reminded me of a lot of things. School life is officially over for me but I never really did things that I thought I would have done while schooling. I don't really understand why am I so not into some things but I'm quite sure part of the reason is that I know too much about it from past present and various sources that I see the dark side of it. Things that I told myself I should do after school just became less appealing that it used to be. I don't know if its good to know so much and see things from such an angle.. too bad I was brought up overusing my brains. I'll always think a thousand times over something before I really do it and I do drop a lot of them cause either they're not feasible or I know I'll just regret doing it. Probably that's why I am so traditional.. or maybe I'm just suppressing myself with it

I've found a job and I'm currently working with two friends. We've been working for nearly a week and its really quite tiring cause its a seven day work week for us. Pay's not that fantastic so I'm thinking of finding another job and alternate them. That basically leaves me with totally no time to go out. Anyway I don't really go out except visiting the school gym or training with the juniors so its no big deal anyway. Its really hard to organise any successful outings among classmates and teammates cause guys are going army and girls are working fulltime. Speaking of army, I'm currently still pes D and I'll probably only know my enlistment date in late march or early april.. how screwed can the system be?

I'm really looking forward to a China trip with the workmates and other friends but all I've gotta do now is earn as much as I need to spend for the trip ^^

我讨厌睡觉

2010-01-19T20:59:00.004+08:00

有些人一觉睡醒就发现世界变了样，有些人刚游玩了梦乡就接着观光天堂。我刚才睡了一觉醒来就出了一些让我很不愉快的事。可谓历史重演.. 但说它是历史好象有些不妥当应为那件与其非常相似的事只不过在两个星期前发生。今天在外面忙了大半天，弄得身体检查还得重检查。我国的医疗人员真的挺能干的，把我这小毛病反反复复的"讨论"了三四个月才终于决定做一次正式的跑步机检查。干脆我现在就死掉算了省得还得面对一些无聊没趣的人。

妈的..刚睡醒了性情不好不写了。

Little things in life adds up to what's meaningful in life

2009-12-31T00:36:00.003+08:00

There is something changing in me.. I'm behaving so differently from the usual self, I don't get frustrated easily anymore and I think I'm smiling more too! Even my music taste changed haha. This post doesn't even fit the theme of the blog lol!!

I'm learning to enjoy the little things in life.

Life sucks.. cliche but very true

2009-12-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

First of all, thanks to Zhao xuen for helping me escape all my troubles last night! The house party and all the drinking really helped me clear up my worries. I enjoyed it but I know you felt really sucky cause you can't drink yesterday. I shan't talk about what happened after that cause that's quite screwed up.

Secondly, I went for CIP with.. guess who.. Zhao xuen again today at Bishan. We had this he invite me for something to open up and I invited him to something that allow him to return to the society. It was really easy for us cause ZX is really a genius at asking others for favor. We finished the job in less than half and hour and went to watch a movie. The movie wasn't that good though but it was quite an enjoyable time spent with him cause he's a great friend!

Thirdly, I am really very annoyed.. I know some of my friends know why I am so guai but the very reason that is keeping me that way is slowly eroding away. My parents are really very annoying recently (yes I know I shouldn't be talking about this here). Fine I shall keep it short and exclude the details. I feel like I can go and just disappear after A lvls cause apparently I feel like I am totally useless to them after As. Argghh.. I have a lot to say but I don't think I should cause I have already vented.

Lastly, some other thing has been bothering me but I won't talk about it cause its a disagrace to myself. Although it was very immature of me but I am glad that I have some new found energy because of it and those extra energy will push me to work harder and become stronger in the future.

I have a dream, that one day I'll be so proud of all that I've done and I'll look back at my life and tell myself confidently that no one else could have done it better than I had for I've done it my way.

Basketball time

2009-12-09T01:27:00.002+08:00

Prom is over.. I can safely say I didn't not do things that I will regret next time. Firstly, I didn't follow the footsteps of Ng ZX cause apparently he kept thinking about it last night. Then again you many choose to say I no balls but the point is why do something you know you will regret? Secondly, I didn't go clubbing despite the fact that I spent 3 hours near one. Those first time clubbers who came out at around 3 looked really pathetic. Some of them obviously can't drink so its kinda stupid to stuff all the alcohol down and feel like shit after that. Thirdly, I got to take a closer look at some people. Its regrettable that I have known such people for the past few years. Now I kinda make prom sounds really horrible for me, which is quite true except for the occasional mood booster from some friends and the long hours of talk I had with Zhao Xuen.

Slept from 9 am to 3 pm and went for some bball shoot arounds. I recovered from that KFC sickness and I was able to regain my ball sense and make some pretty baskets. Then at night I went bball with some friends and we played full court with the Filipinos. Lost the first game 9-14 and almost won the second with a scoreline of 11-7 before the lights went out. What really annoyed me was that there was no clear conscious in the team to defend. I think what we lacked was team defence. The Filipinos are much bigger than the other 4 of my friends so offensive rebounds are totally impossible with only me and LJY able to contest. I had to shout at my teammates to return for defense after each shot but they are either too slow or they don't bother to. Strictly speaking, my team is just a 3.5 man team cause one guy can't play and one guy is lazy ttm. The Filipinos don't even bother to play 5 man offense on us and that's fking disrespectful. The redemption came when we trashed them in stamina in the 2nd game. We had a couple of good blocks and steals so we kinda equalized on that. All I can say is you need a good team to play good team basketball..

Okay, now I gotta talk about my favourite NBA player, Allen Iverson. I'm really glad he got back to 76ers. Although his debut was spoiled by a loss but it shows that he has matured from the years of switching between teams and almost retiring as a free agent. I think in life we have to treasure opportunities given just like how AI did with this new contract. I hope he continues to play with his heart on the court, play good basketball.

I don't complain.. ass

2009-12-05T02:12:00.003+08:00

A lvl is over... for everyone. I'm feeling damn bored cause my daily routine of eat gym bball sleep is totally robotic. I don't have my prom clothes yet and I am procrastinating like ever. Luckily some nice soul called LJY is gonna accompany me to get it tommorrow! Now my wallet will have a huge hole. The feeling of having no money.. poor.. penniless dadada sucks. Then again, nothing beats getting into relationshits with people around you.

Let me make this clear. I dislike act-smart people, arrogant people and those the act-friendly ones.. or rather many people. Here's a piece of advice to myself: treasure the real friends.. screw the rest of them. I think I would choose to ignore such people in the future cause its just gonna send me back to the old days where I had to put up a fake front and stuff.. its really disgusting and so damn exhausting. Worst of all, working your brain on all that doesn't burn calories like what L (death note guy) said. Don't be surprised if I choose to ignore you cause you know best why. I know my friends better than anyone does.

Then again there is this other group of people besides those who hate you and those who are fine with you. I find it hard to play along with them cause you don't wanna hurt them unnecessarily neither do you wish to get tied up to them. Most people think I am blessed to have them cause many people out there don't even have one. Well I disagree cause I don't think I need them although I used to feel so deprived of one. I wouldn't mind these people falling into the two categories mentioned previously. My behaviour has lead to many believing I am "a three letter word".. that's not true and screw off if you're scared. I'm perfectly "eight letter word" and I have my reasons for doing so. You call me no confidence, pussy .. you name it.. I don't give a damn cause I lead my life my way.

The time is just not right yet..

The last time I post before A lvls

2009-10-02T23:59:00.003+08:00

I've been trying to log in to this acct for super long but I forgot my gmail pass. There is just so much I wished to blog about over the past few months cause everytime I see something really thought provoking I'd like to express it out here.

I realised that I am really a very emotive person, who gets really affected by the tiniest thing. I was returning home after bball one night and I saw this old aunty who manages a fruit stall near my house. I used to visit her every morning last time when I was in primary 4 with my mom and I always played around that area of the wet market. She has grown much older and there is this blank look on her face when she saw me. All of a sudden, my emotions gushed out as I felt extremely sympathetic towards her cause her life is really hard and I felt that I should help her in some way. Its really weird for me to feel so because apparently we were nothing more than mere strangers and it soon dawned upon me that I was just a tiny being in this world who is trapped in my own struggles. I couldn't even control my own destiny let alone help another person. After all, everyone will ultimately live their own lives and they will only have the capacity to resolve their own problems so who am I to stand out and say that I can improve another person's life? With all these conflicts in me, I really needed someone to share my feelings with at that moment but I realised that there was no one in my friend list who would be as foolish as me to develop such thoughts. I'd be mocked..

The second emotional roller coaster I had happened when I studied alone in school till around 10 plus alone. That day was quite a weird one as it was the end of all the major papers for PCME students (except chem and the MCQs) so the buddies in my study group left early. I had a totally different experience that night without company. I took a short walk around the school and it was almost empty except a few couples doing their own stuff in a corner. During that walk I thought about how soon it'll be that I'll graduate and leave this place where I spent my 6 years in. It made me reflect deeply upon every happenings since sec1. I really did come very far, and all my failures and accomplishments belong to this place. Although I was merely an insignificant part of this school but it was definitely the most significant thing in my life. That's when I told myself that I'd never forget this place.. and the memories I share with it.

If you are (who happened to visit this dusty place) free then you should check this out. Its really touching.

I felt the title 好一对"狗男女" (sorry if you don't understand Chinese) was really what made this video so very special. Even animals are capable of showing the purest feelings towards each other that some people obviously lack. Its so ironic how many so called 狗男女 (teens in fact) are just wasting their time away flirting and doing those obscene stuff when their ulterior motive is just for pleasure. Well I'm definitely not the best person to make such a comment because I may not understand the feelings of love as well as some of my peers because I've never been in a relationship with an opposite sex. Wouldn't it be more rational to do something more meaningful at a young age?

This video is so touching to me because it makes me feel as if I lost a loved one. I think that when our parents finally leave us, there will never be anyone who can fill up the void in our souls that our parents once occupied. That's why it hurts to grow up..

xue3 shang4 jia1 shuang1

2009-07-15T22:39:00.003+08:00

All of a sudden I am back into blogging. I just sprained my ankle from basketball again. Totally incoherent.. ahh whatever. I feel damn sian cause it seems that whenever I am injured there is no one there who really cares but whenever others are injured I am always the one who brings them the treatment. I know the people I know are not with me when I am injured but its just this sudden loneliness that makes me really sad.

Looks like I have no real friends too, except the few buddies whom I hang out or study with. I haven't really found someone that I share all my thoughts with.. with the closest being SS, who sometimes can be very annoying too!!

So I sat under my block for half an hour or so thinking why is my life turning out to be like this. Was I always putting up a tough front when I should be asking help? Well this time I didn't give the people playing with me a chance to help cause I knew all they could do was to show some words of concern.. nice enough but too bad it won't help. I seem to lack trust in others and I do like to take things into my own hands. If that's the reason why I am friendless (I seriously hope not), then I'll end up friendless forever.. sad! I sound rather immature here.

This sorta reminds me of another person who once told me he had no friends too, I tried to be friends with him but I don't think I'll ever want to get closer to him cause I can't really makes friends with anyone who doesn't return my kindness. I can't really stand people who are so called "zhong se qing you".. hate to confess but I may be feeling this way cause I've never been in a serious relationship so I'd never know how zhong se I'll become.

Err back to what happened after I sprained my leg. I got back home after i iced my ankle and my mom was the first to notice my sprained leg cause I was limping but the sad part came when she asked whether I needed a plaster! Don't know whether you should call that cute or ... =.= err I shouldn't badmouth my parents. So I carried out all the healing procedures myself and that's true for all other injuries I have sustained in the past.

Isn't it quite sad if you live life this way forever?

2009-07-13T22:16:00.004+08:00

I bruised my lip yesterday playing bball and got two cuts on both of my hands. No wonder NBA people all wear mouth guard play. Well at least my front tooth didn't get knocked off. Well that isn't as dulan as what happened today. All thanks to Chester leow, who smacked my face while trying to block me. That game with him just got more violent and I started to get pissed. I think there still much to be learnt from the adults I was playing with yesterday, such as being less docile, like playing rugby like that.

Can't remember which of my friends told me that if I had a grudge over someone I should confront him personally, I am too lazy to do that cause I am not going to take a load of shit in my face against someone I don't like. Moreover you have to see who is this person in the context. First time I rant about someone on my blog, totally not my style.

Oh and guess what, I was nice enough to say bye to him after that and he merely ignore.. hate such people, if I was like 5 KG heavier than I am I don't think you'll be so arrogant infront of me. I think I'm going to follow the steps of cs, totally cool ttm. I wonder why have I become so unforgiving.. cause I'm tired of being nice.. not like I am very nice in the first place -.- Whatever lar, so stupid ranting over someone in school.

As for tests.. I screwed blocks.. so.. I'm gonna drop a few things on hand so I can mug properly and one of them is definitely gonna be basketball.

Medical screening

2009-06-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

I don't think anyone visits this anymore haha. Just felt like I should post something :X

I went for medical screening yesterday and I got Pes D!!!! :( Everything was like A A A A ... until they discovered my ECG was abnormal (the one where they put something to suck on your chest) and I downgraded to D. For those who don't know, an abnormal ECG basically means my heart beat is weird. Now I've got to go scan my heart on September, sian to the max lar! I guess I'll either end of pes A or C now le ._. dulan ttm

On top of that, my fat % was 21! Thats like a bit lower than chester only, haiz cannot suan him anymore. I suspect that guy told me someone else's fat percentage though xP!! This means I have to run more but then arh.. many of my friends told me that I may drop dead when doing sports.. sian!

Life is damn troublesome lar!!

I wish I can protect people I care from death..

2009-05-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

My dad told me one of my aunt died of cancer today. Damn sad, we met before like 3 years ago and its like suddenly the person that catalysed my creation has left the world. She was my parents' so called mei2 ren2 and we probably had less than an hour long of convo with each other.

Didn't know I valued life so much, god bless her! =)

Feeling kinda weak recently, been doing quite a bit of workout recently and I totally got owned after today's sprint resistant runs during bball. Maybe I should recover fully before I attempt these. My mom's constant nagging on how to take good care of my health etc has always made me damn sian but it does sound more important now that one of my "kins" have passed away.

All these talks about death, which afterall will greet everyone of us everyday, isn't that scary anymore amidst the A lvls stress cause if I die now won't I be freed from all the stress?! Hahaha craziness!

IQ test ^^

2009-05-03T20:50:00.001+08:00

Took this IQ test.. go try go try!!!

heh I didn't cheat okay :P

Filled to the brim with negativity (maybe not so negative afterall)

2009-04-30T22:57:00.006+08:00

Its been a while since I last felt such strong negative energy in me. I seriously don't understand myself at all. Sometimes I question myself whether I've been putting up a false front all the time too but I know that there are times when I am truly happy. Now I feel so empty without all the wushu and rugby trainings, all that is left is just CSM and I seriously hope I don't screw up.

The season has gone.. just like that. Looking back, I think I could have done more and there are numerous possibilities if I had chose to do certain things differently.. like quitting wushu (which is highly unlikely), not going overseas etc. I am quite sure I'd have done better. Although I managed to inject fear in my opponents and taught them a hard lesson but then again I could have contributed much more if I didn't take up two CCAs. I am proud as a wushuer cause we are Champs and we seriously fought very hard this year.. 1 point difference >.< As the first guy to compete for my school, I am glad I didn't disappoint my coach and teammates and created a good start but whenever I think of how I could have competed in at least 2 more categories (maybe extending our lead by winning more medals) I start to blame myself for taking up two CCAs. For the wushu team, its pride gained from getting our long lost champs trophy but for me its just mere disappointment in myself.

Many people may envy me for handling two CCAs so well but if you look at it closely.. I didn't really do a good job managing them. I missed 1 wushu training and 1 rugby training every week this year and I stretched my body to its max through several double/triple trainings per day. It may sound zai or even cool but it did no good to my body. As the chinese saying goes: 休息是为了走更长远的路 I totally burned myself out every week this year and in the process I wasted part of my studies. My dad was right, at the end of the day what matters is the number of As you get because you can't feed on your medals and trophies. It sounds materialistic yet so true.

I must say that both CCAs have crafted me into a very different person since sec school. I became much fitter after joining wushu; it implanted the fighting spirit in me and it also taught me that I had to strive for the things I wanted. "Special thanks to Li Jiao Lian who gave me a chance to compete in nationals despite niaoing me non-stop for ponning training" Well on the other hand, rugby was something that exposed me to different people and I learnt how to work together with them. It was also a cca that made me gain 10kg of mass and forced me to be aggressive. Although most people who take up 2 ccas will choose 1 sport and 1 recreational based but there is bound to be something to be learnt from all CCAs and I won't ever regret taking up two sports ccas.

I felt rather week when I ran to KAP and back today, don't know whether its the flu that killed my stamina or what but the point is everyone please take care.. getting (swine o.o) flu is not a joking matter! I feel damn stressed when I look at my calender for May, its packed with tests and stuff so I guess I'll dao my birthday. Talking about birthdays, I still owe a friend his present.. haiz I'll try to pass it to him next week I promise haha.

Interestingly, I ended off with a happy tone.. "wonders why"

It feels like I just failed A lvls

2009-04-14T20:49:00.000+08:00

I feel like sh*t now.. I think its totally my fault for our defeat today. I swear all would have been fine if I didn't miss that tackle :( All of a sudden my world just collapsed...

How true..

2009-04-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

May

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

HC vs SA

2009-04-08T21:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the match against SA.. QUITE okay I guess. I got to know I had to play in the morning (like err 4 hours before I stepped on the field) so I had to adjust my mood but I think I failed :S

I further injured my stupid left thigh during warm up by tackling yier >.< then the first half was totally sucky for me.. I missed all the tackles on left side cause I didn't want to fall and end up MIA for CJ match. I think I kicked someone in his stomach cause he dived at my feet: serves him right :P Managed to kick a grubble that got us a line-out near their try.. and I think that was all I did X.X pathetic!!! Totally no mood that day + felt like puking cause of the mouth guard. Good thing is that our team defence got quite zai with 10 plus min left of the first half. We held them for that entire time I suppose.. cheetuan say that was the longest he has ever seen :)

They freaking started to kick during second half.. den wing drop ball like *** so our defence became quite screwed.. alas I thought of letting the wingers have a chance to catch so I supported but I ended up playing "soccer" with a few SA wingers. @#$ How dare they try to grubble past me, wts.. den I blocked it and high tackled that retard (I make the idea of high tackling sound totally legal =.=) They gave up kicking towards the wings after zhaoxuen switched to winger and I became their next target cause they thought I couldn't catch too. I missed my first catch but I still kicked the ball out for line out and someone tackled me in solar pexis! Chao ji pain.. hanged on to that bastard's hand and I was just about to drag him to the ground to rob him of fathers day and send him to hell.. I remembered someone say "yuyu don't get so agitated" o.O so I turned away from the spectators and ren3 tong4 (if not chao malu). I bet its their coach instructed them to remove me.. likely cause of my "warcry" earlier on. After that shengkun dio dead leg then we no kicker -_________- and guess what zx, yuteng and I had to kick off respectively!! I only managed one okok dropkick.. the rest was either curl ball or some grubble >.< F* they spamm kicking after that.. managed to catch some then I zam 2 imba spirals which got us a line out and some cheering from the crowd (esp terrence <3 u muacks) haha, chao shuang the feeling! XD The second kick I forgot to chase then my whole team offside -.-''' stunned by my kick.. BLEH!!! Anw I think its just tyco lar =X but at least I managed it when all SA kicks sucked like bao! :D

Throughout the match we kept attempting to hospitalise their players cause the refree is some kay_ (fill in the blank.. don't use A though) then cheetuan told us he wants to see someone die lol?! Yier keep stepping on people during rucks then he got one SA f*tard stretchered out (quite funny =P). Forwards all "contributed" during rucks. Caishuai super shuai la.. just sub in then kneed three guys and squeezed their *****.. totally O.O!!! SA actually quite hum.. some of them dio owned then don't dare to run at us already. Whats more, I pull the forwards out of rucks then slap them on the floor but non uttered a shi*. Their f*ing prop crash at wing then everyone pile ontop (it evolved into some American football game). I saw this jian4 SA guy trying to restrain our players (they play dirty) so I flew and elbowed two of them from behind (not like we play any cleaner).. point is, I managed to get away ^.^ but their prop cheat and got a try by rolling the ball forward although the refree (I feel like I just insulted all refs by calling him one) asked him not to move the F*ing ball.

The game was plagued bias and cheating throughout (although they would have won without having to do so) cause the ref keep giving them penalties whenever possible and changing the rules to give SA an upper hand.. to think that the team that was ranked second in season last year had to rely on a ref to help them better their scoreline.. totally pathetic!! I think their coach seriously needs to reflect man.. why did they only score 70+ against us despite having all odds against us. Caishuai came up with something like this: why do they have such a noob scoreline.. cause they miss conversions and why so.. cause they attack by wing.. why.. cause they are scared of our backline. Its so true man.. I bet thats why the spectators cheered for us towards the end =]

I sound like we damn zai although we lost but I'm quite sure the team all expected something more from SA (SA leh.. not sai or wadever) and it was totally missing compared to the AC match. My respect goes out to the guy who hands offed me in my face and their full back although I hate you both..

Time to reflect on my bad first half performance and prepare myself for the CJC match! Gotta recover my badly damaged thigh which got worse from the match.

Special thanks to benja for being a "zhaoxuen" and yier for nearly killing (it was a good attempt) the SA guy who should consider himself lucky cause eechu went MIA.

Go rugby

2009-04-05T22:22:00.003+08:00

ROAR!!! (can't find any other way to start)

Okay I'm confirm not gonna play against SA this week.. super worried for the team cause obviously some of us don't know how its like to be humiliated. Even if we are bound to lose in terms of scoring we should at least minimise the score line or win in other areas (like maybe go sin bin for being "too dangerous" or hospitalising a few). Really hope more and more of us get serious by the time we go against CJ and MI..

Haiz I'm quite scared of injury on my left butt... i tried to do some side stepping and sprints throughout the jog just now but I just can't hit top speed without utilising that swollen piece of butt muscle. True that I endured the pain during wushu but now I find myself of no worth to the team already.. I can't run fast anymore! T.T Maybe.. maybe I can at least motivate the team to train?? Jiayou =]

I'll "kill" some people next week.. haha even if I can't run properly I'll attempt a full psycho mode and break a few bones before I go sinbin :X Super violent thoughts running through my mind now.. blehh

WUSHU!!! first wish granted :)))

2009-04-01T22:26:00.003+08:00

me :) collecting my medal from the principal!

Wahaha so happy I won an individual medal at last.. but super saded cause the judges super duper biased >:( The first guy is from national team but not zai AT ALL so why does he deserve 8.95! Hmphh, so unfair lar!! He should have gotten something like 8.67.. den I own him by 0.01 Muahahahaha then the gold is mine ^^

Okay stop dreaming xyy, you need to rest or else your upcoming matches GG!

feeling extremely fatigue

2009-03-07T23:10:00.005+08:00

Definition

Fatigue is a feeling of weariness, tiredness, or lack of energy.

Alternative Names

Tiredness; Weariness; Exhaustion; Lethargy

Considerations

Fatigue is different from drowsiness. In general, drowsiness is feeling the need to sleep, while fatigue is a lack of energy and motivation. Drowsiness and apathy (a feeling of indifference or not caring about what happens) can be symptoms of fatigue.

Fatigue can be a normal and important response to physical exertion, emotional stress, boredom, or lack of sleep. However, it can also be a nonspecific sign of a more serious psychological or physical disorder. When fatigue is not relieved by enough sleep, good nutrition, or a low-stress environment, it should be evaluated by your doctor. Because fatigue is a common complaint, sometimes a potentially serious cause may be overlooked.

The pattern of fatigue may help your doctor determine its underlying cause. For example, if you wake up in the morning rested but rapidly develop fatigue with activity, you may have an ongoing physical condition like an underactive thyroid. On the other hand, if you wake up with a low level of energy and have fatigue that lasts throughout the day, you may be depressed.

O.O can't believe there is so much to talk about for just one simple word.. was bored but at least I got to know that I am experience fatigue instead of drowsiness lol! Sadly, I may be depressed cause I almost dozed off during interview workshop la >.< !! Kudos to Friday aka double training day x.x

After a horrendous experience this week, I think I've found a huge source of negative energy: to be channeled into motivation & maybe anger.. created with my own hands! No more worries for the lack of motivation.. in fact I may have a hard time controlling it =X.

Ha I shall sleep earlier tonight.. rest my tired soul!

Personality tests

2009-02-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

I can't believe that its not.. ha but this shows that I have to try harder in terms of temper control.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Medium

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

Another one.. interesting answers

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	Moderate
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

Ok all for today... boring

rugby try

2009-02-09T22:37:00.004+08:00

When I signed in blogger today, I realised that I haven't changed my password since the start of sec 4.. freaky experience but a good reminder so that I wouldn't commit the same mistake again.

Anway here is a rugby video of our match last last sat.

Show casing the scorer of the try.. Zhao xuen!

For those who don't really understand what's happening.. here's a brief overview:

We got into a scrum and the ball is on our side so the ball went from alex passed out to jianfei then jianfei swinged out to shengkun and sk got caught by the defense so a ruck was formed and alex did a pick and go and swtiched with me and I did a side-step pop to zhaoxuen who tore down the rest of the defense :) (woots long sentence..)

Forgive the lousy video taking skill.. but anyway we'd still like to thank you Caishuai!

Ohohoh, and please dao the retarded shouting and my jersey number (I know its unglam x.x) :S

A rugby match

2009-01-31T22:36:00.003+08:00

The match today with Daiman high school people was good.. we won 2 of the 4 matches!

Some highlights:

There were some real good tackles by some of us and we were rather aggressive as the game progressed. Most of the tackles happened before the opponents even reached my line of defence so I only got to do 5 tackles xD Many of the forwards performed great crashes and forward play. Fierce rucking during the last game and ball recycling was fast.

Improvements:
I think our defense needs to be worked on. We've got to go for lower tackles and try to bring down the opponents 1 for 1 else our defenses will surely break down if they continuously try to crash through. Improve on the rucks, backs passing and communication.

Actually I was damn damn sian during the match today cause I got the meeting time wrong and woke up at 6.20 so I was totally "zzz" during the 1st quarter. Our 1st quarter was damn shitty and the only try came from a player the other team lent us. Someone smashed me in my ***** then for around 3 min I was just hoping the ball don't come to me :x Second quarter our opponents became J2s and it was quite scary to tackle some of the chao fat ones. That round we lost by 1 try and some imba fat forward went to step on my arm when I was involved in the ruck !@#$!!!!!

Then we watched a match between the seniors and juniors of Daiman and my gosh.. they are damn fast in the rucks and their back play is damn fast. There is still so much to be learnt in rugby. 4th quarter was more enjoyable for me because this was where the side with more stamina had the advantage and the quality of our back plays improved. Zhaoxuen and some other guy whom I forgot scored the only 2 tries. I mastered the technique of crashing and handsoff through one of the plays where I crashed past 3 men. Actually its all about brains and guts because if we tell ourselves not to fall upon getting tackled we will most likely resist with full force and maintain balance.. same goes for handsoff, which will definitely send a person flying if you try hard enough. Stupid CS didn't take down this cause he said he was focused on looking at my play (great excuse!) :S RAWRRR whack you whack you..

We will get to play a match with them every fortnightly now.. quite a good way to gain some experience before season starts :) Looking forward to next next week..

CNY

2009-01-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

CNY has been quite pleasant for me so far.

Think I'm gonna turn fat soon.. which means I'm gonna train in school again wor.. how I hope someone will wanna train together with me :( (someone juz pangseh-ed me on Saturday.. !@#$)

Rawwrr I hate training without enough sleep! The sun doesn't help either =X I'm being damn random. Sucks.. go sleep liao zzz

OCIP SHANGHAI

2008-12-27T22:43:00.021+08:00

This is heavily overdue.. I'm sorry!

OCIP Shanghai

Li ming school.. the block A

yo this is me... I'm from Athena

my fans :D

a friendly basketball match with the kids (not this one)

wang shenlei :D

dinner time, wheee!!

Nan Jing bu xing jie - where we go at night

Super naughty kids =/

Spot the rapee xD

Scrubbing walls x.x

white washing --> only for cool ppl

Me teaching AaBbCc

Another P.O.V.

autograph session after class xP

completed murals =)

Kbox session requested by the ppl there.. Hongye and my duichang xD

outdoor activities

Squash mate Shixuan!

Gay friend kwanki

Good friend YY (yuenying)

dance sessions (ps i very selfish)

participants at waitan

friendly with shangde sch

in shuixiang on a "mount"

emo shot..

participants ranked no. 1, erwin!

OCIP Group photo (missing: fuxing, yiting, mrs tan, ms wong)

This OCIP trip is truely a learning session for me.. The kids in liming school have touched my heart with their innocence and kindness. I enjoyed every moment I spent with them having our basketball sessions, teaching the kids, teasing the naughty ones or singing to them. The team was bonded and we have achieved our rationale of servicing and learning from the community. The team had fun shopping, bargaining, kboxing, ToTing and we braved through the sad moments during parting..

Questionnaire

2008-12-23T10:20:00.003+08:00

2 friends tagged me!

1.Who is the person who tagged you?
hongye, e-hui

2.The relationship between you and her/him?

Classmate, OCIP teammates!

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him?
emo.. lol.. cool.. caring and GAY! :P

err both very nice lar

4.If she/he becomes your enemy, you will?
dao them forever :X

5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
i <3 u?

6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is... ?
fat.. jking.. err friends before self

7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is... ?
attitude prob at times

8.For the person whom you hate the most, you say...?
u dun even deserve my words

9.What do people feel about you?
ask them? egoistic

10.Who do you have a crush on?
=X

11.The most ideal person you want to be is... ?
kobe bryant xD

12.Pass on this quiz to 5 people:
1. kwanki
2. yuhui
3. maverick
4. junyang
5. fuxing

13.If no.2 & no.3 were together, what will happen?
woah.. i'll be happy for the both of them =D

14.Who does no.5 like?
ehh shiz forgot..

15.What colour does no.1 like?
black i suppose..

16.Say something about no.3.
a maverick xP

17.Who is no.2?
A very good friend!

18.Talk about no.5.
fu xing aka lucky.. great ocip teammate and buddy!

19.Who is no.1?
scopey.. ocip teammate :)

20.Who is the sexiest person amongst them?
frankly speaking.. junyang (i aint gay)

21.What colour does no.4 like?
red

22.Is no.4 single?
no

23.What is your relationship with no.1?
FRIENDS!

24. Are no.1 & no.3 best friends?
don't think they know each other.. bleh

25.What is no.5's surname?
fu

26.What is no.1's nickname?
scopey? KK?

27.What things do you wish to say to no.3?
give me the wax now! roarrr..

28.What will you do to help no.5?
80% of the things..

29.Who does no.1 admire?
erm me? lol... i dunno

30.Where does no.1 live?
errr .. errr i forgot XP

31.Does the 5 of them know who you like?
err 80% of them (80 seems to be appearing v often)

32.What do you wish to say when you see no.2?
yo wassup!

Okay I was bored... I swear!

Shoes shoes shoes

2008-12-22T23:57:00.001+08:00

Ha... i am so proud of my shoe collection now!

converse wade!!! the one i've been searching for for almost a year :X

T mac 7!!! WOOTS.. shanghai rocks xD

Plus one gilbert TS creator.. i've got a total of 3 now :S

OCIP Shanghai

2008-11-30T10:55:00.003+08:00

Departure:
Flight details:
MU569 terminal 3
30/11, 2.45 pm

Return:
MU567
14/12, 3.45 pm

Ha random photos

Hmm not really feeling the usual pre-trip excitement.. this should be a good thing bah :)

Ok off I go!

I <3 contact

2008-11-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

Pics frm Athena outing.

Had contact training today.. no choice but skip wushu cause my thigh was totally CMI from all the trainings I've had over the past 3 days. I over-trained so much that it cannot even recover in 3 days.. haiz! Contact was totally violent and dirty but it was worth the time cause everyone improved and we had a great match against the forwards.

Went to cathay for movie with rugby ppl. Quantum of Solace was a great movie.. close to being impeccable expect for the lack of something :X lol nvm..

Ate at a very strange place.. reminds me of the 19th century lol but surprisingly the atmosphere was conducive for eating xD Next time must intro friends there haha.

Let's spend tonight on top of the world

2008-11-09T16:38:00.001+08:00

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Adventurousness - 83.3% 2. Open-Mindedness - 72.7% 3. Spirituality - 61.5% 4. Varied Interests - 57.1% 5. Sense of Humor - 57.1%	1. Negative Reputation - 66.7% 2. Vanity - 66.7% 3. Lack of Essentials - 58.3% 4. Financial Issues - 54.5% 5. Arrogance - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Adventurousness - You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available girls. Spirituality - Your spiritual side brings you peace and balance, and keeps you grounded. This is attractive, as you can help reinforce this quality in other people. Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of girls. Sense of Humor - Girls are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display!
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Negative Reputation - Your reputation may be working against you. Sometimes this is impossible to control, but try to counter-act it by presenting yourself in positive ways. Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial. Lack of Essentials - Dating is difficult for you because you lack certain key things, which may include private space, a car, money, or a nice wardrobe. Work toward obtaining these essentials! Financial Issues - Your financial situation is not in good shape, and this does not bode well for you on the dating scene. Try to get on top of your financial difficulties. Arrogance - You are a bit full of yourself. You need to practice a little humility now and then, as arrogance can be a turn-off.
Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz by Dating Diversions

Do i see arrogance? haiz.. not that again :(

I have taken a little trip around Singapore town

2008-11-08T21:38:00.004+08:00

Today.. is.. a.. super.. siao.. imba.. DAY

I think i toured the whole of Singapore already x.x

Places of interests (in order): queensway, HCJC, NTU yunnan corner, my house, changi airport! Whee so fun..

Queensway totally sucks because the shops open at such a late time, and I had to wait for 20+ min lar! In the end I didn't buy cause haven't discount lol.

Cabbed with yz, lx n chester to NTU. Everyone (okay not really.. everyone) was there already, played pool, table tennis, mahjong, basketball etc. Saw Mrs Leo and her supa supa cute son!

celebrated the dec~nov ppl's bdae

Look out for the guy in yellow..

Sent off yuhui after that.. all the best in India and you better come back as a 1! God bless you =) Oh and bo mu looks damn damn damn young, so young that I mistook her as one of the ny girl going over India with her :x k maybe thats because I suck

My legs are dying. I think I overtrained again.. 3 days liao haven't recover :( sucks

Raahhhhh... I wanna train, oops..

harhar..

2008-11-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

You Are Apple Green

You are almost super-humanly upbeat. You have a very positive energy that surrounds you.

And while you are happy go lucky, you're also charmingly assertive.

You get what you want, even if you have to persuade those against you to see things your way.

Reflective and thoughtful, you know yourself well - and you know that you want out of life.

What Color Green Are You?

very very untrue.. but who cares!

Very bored at home.. then again I don't want next year to begin so quickly :S Looking forward to trainings and OCIP. Gonna run really short of cash after I get my shoe.. haiz.. must save up so that I can shop properly in Shanghai :x

Very thankful towards this guy who taught me some basketball stuff last night. He said I got slower liao.. sian :( so long never play le mah! I finally got to know how to make good use of my height and size ^^ didn't know I had so much advantage against so many people xD Looks like I've gotta re-study the art of basketball le lor, too weak now..

The next few days looks damn fun!!!

1. Training double tmr
2. Fac outing on Fri
3. Class chalet on Sat =]

:DDDDDDDDD

Class chalet!!!

2008-10-31T23:19:00.002+08:00

Totally dying from my PT session.. 200 sit-ups 100 pumping 100 squat jumps 50 pull-ups O.O

What to do man!? I feel like I'm gonna get B for PW liao.. 0 (ZERO!!!) dry-run sessions and our 5 min event haven't settle yet :( Tomorrow is the last day to chiong all these and I'm gonna give it my all liao. But but.. I may have to sacrifice service for this.. haiz feel so bad cause I've missed 2 sessions already D:

Yayy!! 6G having its first class chalet on 8/11 at yun nan corner in NUS! I feel so damn excited once I think of it. Hope many can overnight then chiong whole-day-basketball xD. All of a sudden my class seems to be super bonded :O Hope the turnout rate won't prove me wrong =D

31/10

I can feel that something is changing in me today.. I was more tolerant towards everyone today and I even managed to smile at the lady sitting beside me when we looked at each other at the busstop x.x Its quite a feat for me even though my tone was quite edgy towards a certain somebody :P Nevermind, good job for me! Completed the OP script and when the conclusion is done I think my timming should be 准准 5 min and I'll own! Ha.. contrusting attitude from the beginning.

Body aching like hell now but I just can't sleep. I've got a hell load of chores to do since my dad's abroad and I've got to tank everything :S ROARRRRARRRRR!! zzz

Looking on the bright side

2008-10-26T22:23:00.005+08:00

Super nice song by JJ:

泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情
我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答
我才终于明白
奔不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱
我不痛
我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷
请告诉她
我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心说真心谎话
别告诉她
我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她
我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

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While walking home alone today.. a question suddenly poped up in my mind: Why am I trying so hard??

Guess what? I don't fucking know..

All I can do is.. try my best to be more optimistic =S

27/10

Got damn sian.. freaking emo. I was so damn depressed the whole day la! Why am I such a loser?! I've got so little compared to others and no matter what I do it just won't work out :( The sucky feeling got worse upon returning from friend's house. I went for some midnight bball and it made me happier cause I got so tired from practising lefthand and crossovers that I lost track of my thoughts. Tried to think postive on my way home.. I'm actually quite blessed because there are so many who are facing more severe problems compared to mine. At least I have a few friends.. I'm promoted.. I have enough money to keep myself =D.. I can do sports so I should treasure all these.

My dad left for China to visit my parents' 媚人 (in other words, without her I won't exist), who is suffering from cancer and her conditions are catastrophic. I feel so bad for not going with my dad because I really want to say a big thankyou to her for making me possible. Now I can only pray for her to hang on tightly to life.. all the best aunty :) Although its just 2 days since his departure, I'm already starting to miss him.. I feel as if I lost him forever and it just hurts me so much :<.. I'll tell him how much I miss him when he comes back and I'll never argue with him le! So much on being a good boy.. I shall start by sleeping earlier tonight :D

Bad boy

2008-10-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

I am such an aloof person.. I think most of my friends think I'm those very on kind but that's because I've been trying super hard to socialise and participate. In doing so, I've told many that as a PE rep, I think that winning is secondary to participation, which is what I value. That's all lies.. I like being alone.. having all the free time for myself.

26/10

Sat infront of the com for the whole day.. got sian at times and mugged a bit(thats how sian it can get). I started watching some super old Jap anime.. well at least it kept me alive =/

Bballed a little at night. Totally lost 3 pointer but my left-side layup improved by leaps and bounds!! In fact, my left hand lay up is faster than my right and thats not good D: During the game, I noticed that most people are defenseless when they are attacked on their right side (which is my left) so I shall spamm left side attacks. Got a little faster today and found out the technique to get past someone and change direction so in total thats a double crossover.

Played several rounds of CS at hanyu's house. ^^ I think I'm a little addicted to it liao :X My 3rd time playing CS so I think the results still quite acceptable lar =) top frag. Hy kept saying I'm pro at headshots but what I felt was that all the headshots were super tyco plus I was just applying what I learnt from seeing him play mah. Oh no, why am I talking about gaming? Damn...

go slp le... zzz

I am O.O

2008-10-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

Taking up 2 CCAs aint easy.. I've got to train almost everyday except Wed n Sun. Continuous training has taken its toll on my muscles and I'm practically aching from head to toe everyday! God knows why did I even bothered going weights on Wed, which is like my only free weekday =.= @#$

Actually I can't really blame anyone for this because this was my choice before promos.. I'd always wanted to train harder and achieve more so this shall be it, I'll do my best in both wushu and rugby :)

The class's attendance for lectures is damn pathetic lol. Only 9 went for math on Wed (I was amongst the other 14.. bleh). Actually our class isn't the only one experiencing this after-promos truency cause I've heard of worse cases from other classes. After ponning both phy&math for lan.. I felt super bad lar! In fact, it was so bad I mugged for 5+ hours after that :S I even sat through the 4 hours of econs lecture today.. now I feel smarter! :D

Thursday 23/10

This is my first time spending most of my time alone in school. I spent all my free time alone.. sat alone during lecture and at class bench. I must say its really time spent worth it because its rare I get to be alone in school. There was no fear for solitude.. no envy from seeing other people having companionship. I felt so relaxed.. so very contented =)

Our group submitted the finalised WR.. finally!!! Haha, costed us 24+ bucks wth la! Time to work on the I&R and OP liao

Rugby was fun but I've gotta work more on my kicking and passing. I felt damn bad cause I shouted at a few people during training and I think they are quite pissed.. sian my hunger for winning is making me more and more morally bankrupt.. and I don't know how to bring an end to this! :( Pray that I'll change for the better.. before I lose more friends

Aside from a few happy moments.. today's an overall rather sucky day. I'm so damn tired la.. shall sleep now! zzzzz

FOS - soccer

2008-10-19T13:42:00.004+08:00

Pics from FOS!

caishuai & hongye
shengkun hy wangzhuo lixiang
the proud S6G team =)

sk's shot
cs missed!!!
wz
lx... milliseconds before shot

Credits goes to dujing, who is our camera girl, for her zai pic taking skills (Imba timing)!

Its a Friday!!

2008-10-17T20:12:00.004+08:00

cs, hw, mex

This pic may be very confusing to most ppl.. so let me explain. The ruggers had our 2nd training after promos and it felt ****ing good cause we trained in the rain! All was well till the senior trained our sliding. Both caishuai and I got injured.. damn unlucky. After training mex and I sent him to the clinic to see the doc and he ended up in hospital for an operation today. You may ask, then why wasn't I admitted to hospital since I sprained my leg too? You see.. I injured each of my ankles at least 8 times so its like I have this high speed regen power (I can totally walk normally after resting for a few minutes). Somemore caishuai's injury was really damn serious.. the ankle swelled to the size of some apple lar!

Some of the 6G buddies visited him today and we (I think) managed to cheer him up a bit? xD Get well soon man =) dude I'll visit you again tomorrow.. haha and don't you dare to ZZZ when the team arrive. Smack you ah!!!

Okay time to talk a bit about bball-
These days my shooting fluctuated like mad. It can go so accurate that I shoot down (break the net) the net in the 4th court or miss like 90% of the time. Today's practice in school started off like shit.. I was not even properly attired (half PE half Uniform sucks) and my accuracy was crappy =/ Oh well.. that's okay as long as I manage to reclaim my accuracy at the end of the day. Shot like some real pro just now... ^.^

It was damn funny how the others who were at the court looked at me.. lol.. I kept scoring then this girl who was sitting at the side waiting to join just went off after I hit like seven 3 pointers in a row. The others just looked in disbelief... DAMN diao xD

Okay now what? Mug? Sleep? Slack? Play? I ran out of things to do le?!?!! >:( Lalala screw promos... and everything else... I'm gonna have fun tomorrow! =]

Come... if you dare

2008-10-16T22:40:00.003+08:00

I hate that arrogance.. who are you man? Acting all high and mighty infront of me.. you are not even fit to talk to me for someone of your level. Who are you to give me that shit attitude? Do not assume that my indifference is a lack of power.. its just that you are so insignificant that it would be a waste of time to eliminate you.

I dare you to annoy me again.. for this time, I shall wipe you off the face of Earth. Behold.. and burn the sight of my moves in your mind.. for you who will never surpass me, shall die. Now, disappear.

郁闷

2008-10-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

人心变得好快.. 好快..

我快赶不上你的改变了..

寂寞却在一旁嘲笑我的愚笨..

最近遇到了许多烦恼的事, 不愉之事让我一天比一天难过。想说的东西许许多多但却找不到知音分享。朋友到底是什么？难道朋友只是利用品而已吗？我心好乱.. 好乱.. 这世界为什么这么复杂? 我为什么这么没用.. 连这一点打击都受不了? 我不喜欢每天上学带着面具.. 我希望能做真实的自己。不知不觉我已经离你越来越远.. 甚至在这乱套了的情绪中失去了自我。

最近有些新体验。有些说出口就会希望有回报.. 没有就会造成失落。失落非常痛苦，体验过的人因该都不陌生吧？费尽全力的忘记却始终难以忘怀.. 盲目的垂死挣扎，只为等待那永远不会发生的奇迹。天下要是没有这么多情感就好了。其实这都是因为我没勇气.. 我怕犯作.. 怕我不够好。请你原谅我不懂逗你开心.. 不懂聼你的心.. 请你相信我我会更加珍惜.. 我会呵护着你。我是个每人要的破玩具.. 我需要一个人静一静

对不起 - 王子

回想着过去我学着譲你更安心

2008-10-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

Sabb: ballroom standard and latin.....

It was rather fun. We learnt Waltz, Latin Cha-Cha, Rumba & Quickstep. 2 days is seriously damn short.. but frankly speaking, I had enough of it x.x I chose this because my PW topic was previously ballroom and hip hop dance.. and guess what? Its down to only hip hop =.= Just imagine my face when I went for the sabb yesterday.. diao

I think the most valuable thing I gained is.. a good friend :D Mr Koh (I should call him bro now).. there is something we as mortals can even change so just live your life and forget about those unhappy past lar! =]

It sucks to have an almost crumbling knee cause you suddenly lose the ability to run.. to jump.. to DUNK (that sucks okay?) I want to feel pro again.. esp the FOS feeling where you can 1 solo 3 ppl team. The shoe empowers me =D dark powers that makes my shooting uber accurate and grants x3 speed.. I'm gonna try out it again tomorrow ^^ I hope there are more ppl poning spring cleaning tomorrow then damn fun liao xD

Okay.. off I go to sleep and hope my muscle aches can all disappear by tomorrow :D

OG outing and 6G outing this weekend =) Shiok.. aha

FOS stands for festival of sports

2008-10-06T21:13:00.003+08:00

I've got so much to say about FOS!!!

I think 6G soccer was really good.. its the first time we played as a team and we managed to clinch the 4th place. Although its kinda fei to say these now but frankly speaking I felt damn useless. The goalkeeping position of our team is super slack throughout the 1st 4 games.. totally stand there do nothing but when I was faced with penalty kicks I miss 2 and caused the defeat of our team. =( Haiiizzz

I was totally relaxed when I saw the guy kicking it was john heng (wushu mate) then somehow my hand managed to smack the ball but it still went in.. moral of the story: 骄兵必败 ._.

Okay let me start from the morning. Ponned (yes pon) the sabb briefing and played bball.. thats when the frenzy started. So the whole day was like: Bball soccer bball soccer bball soccer bball soccer soccer soccer bball. Think I shot in like 100+ 3 pointers today.. longest spree of 8 in a row. Now my face is totally roasted from the Sun. My performance today wasn't bad cause I think got people watch so 自然而然 more pro O.O The only sad thing was being unable to perform a proper dunk (u know those ball don't touch rim de) and not being champs for soccer. Now I agree life is full of regrets... damnit

As I'm typing I can feel my face burning lar.. like some chaota jiao like that. My knees are failing me after 1 whole day of bball and I'm quite sure I'll doze off like a pig if my bed is near enough xD.

Time to compliment some people.. Firstly: Lixiang.. it appears to me that you are the most hardworking one on the court and I can feel you were putting your 120% into playing and that really touches me =) Secondly: Caishuai.. this is the first time you complimented that my bball skill is ranked 2nd among all non-bball team people :D Haha. I'll work hard to beat wangzhuo and reach the top :) Thirdly: Hongye.. I understand fully how courageous it is to play with injuries and all the credits of playing the defense goes to you! (get well soon man) =] Off course there are many others whom I wish to thank cause you really rock!!! Thanks to 6G ppl who smsed each and everyone of the players. We are sorry we didn't meet expectations and thank you for your support! <3

Looks like Athena won FOS again.. rather expected.. but somehow I aint that excited about it lol. Through this year's FOS I learnt a few things, which firstly is that there are different types of battles.. 1 being matches that are merely about winning or losing while the 2nd is matches where you defend your pride. One needs not be overly serious when facing the 1st type but you go all out for the 2nd type. The second thing I learnt was that you've got to fight harder (for my case.. cause I expected more) for things you want cause no other person is reponsible for your wants. I'll work harder next time.. I promise you

If I'm gonna continue this post... its gonna be endless so I think its best to end here. =) Bye and see you in school tomorrow.

pre FOS ranting

2008-10-05T23:33:00.003+08:00

Although I would have loved it if I am playing basketball tomorrow.. I'll freaking dunk lar.. but its time to get focused on keeping for the soccer team :D

3/4 of the S6G team went down on Saturday for some practice.. not bad lar considering the huge amount of time most of us spend bballing with the Ares teams. I felt like we can easily trash them if we had played LOL. No wonder all the people were like: your class never play arh? Oh... okayokay :( Haha joking.. I <3 soccer as much as I <3 bball now =|

No gloves for the keeper tomorrow, how? I hope they won't disqualify me D: But its like what lixiang said: if they don't have at least 3 to 4 pairs for loan tomorrow might as well disqualify half the participating teams.. 言之有理 =) We shall see tomorrow >.>

All the best man (saying to myself lar)... bad luck to all the opponents ^^ Jking jking... don't get injured and be happy can le =]

Post Promos Post

2008-10-02T23:17:00.007+08:00

Promos are finally OVER!!! I miss my blog.. LOL

SUPA LONG POSTTT!!!

Okay.. there are just so many things to say but I forgot at least 90% of them =.=

Oh yar... Bleach manga! Its getting super boring cause the storyline drags and drags... foreva =\

My idol.. I aspire to be like him (esp attitude wise)

Damn no link..

Promos over... I miss my blog... I like bleach... what else? Oh ya, I think I'm gonna be super busy this holiday so I'll forget about working or gaming liao lol. I promised myself I'll strengthen myself over the holidays so that I'll be able to have some great results for CCAs next year.. I'm going to keep to that promise. =)

Let me switch the topic.. one of the 6G mates recently left us for UK.. we had our farewell lunch with her days before promos. Pizza hut!!! All the best lq :) Do come back often kay? Haha

busy ppl

this pic is here cause the back of my head is visible :P

The men

I see my hair so... there goes this pic xP

lol at chester

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Okay back to post promos.. I suddenly have this fear of my promos results :( I don't usually discuss or think about the paper after test but this time I kept having nightmares of failing like 2 days after each paper. Its like I suddenly get retained and drop all subjects to H-1000.. LOL! I know it sounds damn childish ._.

林宥嘉 sing 沙滩 damn nice :D

Totally entered the holidays mood le.. feeling damn empty cause no tests to force myself to study and damn bored at home now! I have no idea what to do now with so much time suddenly :S Damn SIAN laaaa...... I'll go find something to entertain myself -_-

My leg healed miraculously!!!

2008-09-15T21:37:00.005+08:00

Woots... haven't felt so 爽 before. I played bball today!!! Roar.. but got one part damn embarrassing lar! XD I think I missed a total of 8 shots nia and while I was playing a couple was playing on the same side of the court. The girl kept looking at me then I felt damn proud of myself.. like kobe cause I kept scoring and stuff. Then I started doing a load of guailan shit.. obviously must score lar.. after the match I heard her telling her BF my shirt can see through de :| "GOSH" lol... wth? Okay lar... not that embarrassing since its not fats shown wad "O.O!"

haha off I go to study le! This should be the last post until promo's over!~~ Bye ppl! Do tag if you are free :D Miss ya <3

My heart skipped a beat on "real" MAF

2008-09-14T10:40:00.003+08:00

Some extremely overdue pics taken on MAF x.x

wushu performance (jitiquan) SPOT ME!!! (shouldn't be hard o.o)

Ending pose.. yiquan lagged xD

I was drunk... didn't notice the cam :X

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Just read up about the human heart on wiki.. interesting.. I realised I used to have palpitation when I was in 24 drums. My heart beat may sometimes resonate with the beats of the drum.. then sometimes when I think of those siao siao stuff my heart will also start to beat damn fast. Its not those err panic then you have the nervous heartbeat but its like my heart is ramming itself against my ribs O.O Sounds cool eh?

Look whats written here: "Palpitations can also occur from blood loss, excessive pain, or lack of oxygen" ... :( Its related to Atrial flutter (the one MM Lee is suffering from) and that thingy can cause sudden cardiac death D: Don't be surprised if I collapse in school anytime x.X

I just got to know that today is the real mid-autumn festival.. yes I am lag.. HC must pushed the MAF celebration 1 week ahead cause they want us to start mugging early (killer promos?). Damn it.. I haven't finish chem and physics after chionging for like 2 weeks! Sian must pick up more pace liao..finish all sciences before I pump all my reiatsu into math! >.<

Okay off I go for MAF celebration at my parent's fren de house.. sian cannot mug le!!! (o.O? look whos talking)

Enjoying the tranquillity at present

2008-09-12T23:05:00.004+08:00

This week is finally over! So relieved lar.. SPAs done.. GP test(make-up) done and I think I've got high chances of getting a pretty decent score between A &B. =) Wrote 9 errors for chem and 5 for physics.. I must be mad, damn kiasu! xD The smell of Propan-1-ol is.. damn gaowei lar!!

Saw a damn funny pic of Mr Loo drawn on foolscape the other day and I was telling Caishuai about it today.. haha! Its damn gao3 xiao3.. "HARHARHAR" But we still <3 him for all the nice things he did to us (hints and being linient etc) =D

Today was almost a perfect day for me except being late in the morning :x I was almost happy the whole day.. damn focused too!!! Managed to finish work on time.. wrote gd essay.. cheered up a very sad friend ;D.. did some heart to heart talk with a new friend and I finished a huge load of revision work.. HAHA I rock!!

Studtalked with yuhui :D and it was really enjoyable since I was able to enlighten her =) Hope you make the right decisions and errm... haha =X I wasn't able to do it at first but just one last word of advice: 相信自己(..真爱就在我醒来的新世纪) =.= OKAY THAT WAS DAMN LAME.. forget it please!

I shall listen to Mrs Leo and work up my way to the top :) I'll strive and achieve as much as I can de!!! 130% of hardwork... all the way man!

bites lips and prepares for the ultimate

2008-09-10T20:26:00.003+08:00

135 is a very special number.. okay random

Congrats, u succeeded in getting a rise out of me.. bagus you happy now? :X

Okay anyway, I had a damn good sleep on the way home just now.. so good that I nearly failed to wake up :S

Everything has settled down le.. I'm at peace and on my way to getting promoted :D (I'll win the bet de) I want to achieve as much as possible in JC and I see how I can achieve that.. I'm more focused liao

Studied with cs & hanwen in the library today.. the school library has cool sound effects! haha. It was rather productive cause I managed to finish the second econs SRQ and the new chem revision practise =D Witnessed some trigonal planar relationship at the same time.. haiz.. why must some people interfer in this kind of thing? Be reasonable and if you've got to give up then just let go like a man la!? Okay I'm not making any sense so I shall stop this..

Talked a load of crap with cs hw and maf after the study session.. played truth or dare and exposed quite a bit of secrets from them.. now I'm gonna tell everyone!!! ^^ Joking nia

Okay so then I had this good sleep on bus. End of story.. Mock SPAs tomorrow :( lalala zzz

The moodswing subsides

2008-09-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

Thanks to the great buddies I have.. I think my moodswing ended =)
My moodswings are totally random de but nevertheless they are always invaluable learning experiences.. what’s more it belongs to those ephemeral kind.. so I can transform back to the old blissful self!!!

Had loads of trouble practicing my left hand layup today cause of the stupid ankle.. its damn swollen! As a result my ego is totally deflated now ) :<

Feeling damn guilty cause I played hearts today.. while waiting for consultation lar.. but there turned out to be no consult (scammed by Hanwen) !! ROAR -_- wth

Slept like a pig from 6 to 8 then did my health checkup.

Now chionging Econs essay plan.. haha damn sian :(

Someone enlighten me? :D

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Hoho... its 3.08 now.. I better sleep

Melody of the 心雨

2008-09-08T23:23:00.003+08:00

Melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱着你求你听我唱完这一段旋律请不要离去
Melody 你是在我脑海不停的旋律
爱过你我的心里只能无言叹息
Melody 无数动人音符在生命里
爱过你失去后我才知道要珍惜你

My heart is in Chaos... I dunno how many times I changed my decisions over the past few days. Its driving me crazy :( My heart is wads driving my actions instead of my thoughts.. its totally out of control. I see my own 双重人格.. its ugly and I hate it..

I hate the rain... though I claimed its pleasant. Rain is the source of sorrow.. 心里的雨如果能变成天上的雨滴那我的雨永远下不完

Wanna smash some WALLs

2008-09-07T16:48:00.006+08:00

I did some 小扫除 and cleared up all the piles of notes lying around. Now my desk looks neater :)

As I was packing I looked through all the notes and test papers from sec4. I thought of all the teachers and the sec4 days. Damn nostalgic :') I regret not treating this year's Teacher's Day seriously, which was only 2 weeks ago!?! As I went through the different topics.. I had a flashback of my sec4 life.. I owe each and every one of them too much and I want to tell them that! :( Thanks my dear teachers :D the yuyu today isn't good at expressing thanks with nice words but yea.. I love you all... 我不能保证将来能有多大的成就，更不能说我要回报你们，但我唯一能做的就是牢记你们的教诲，做个有用的人 =D

Ahhaa I juz deleted this portion of the post cause I realised .. I shouldn't complain so much or else I'll regret not treasuring something :D"

Now when I am doing Chem revision lecture questions.. I keep making stupid careless mistakes and whenever my dad points it out I feel damn stupid and my face goes O.O?!!!!!!

Heck lar!!! I'll just try my best and do as much as I can today.. not urgent anyway >.>

I think I'll change shoe lace tomorrow? xD RANDOMMmmm

MAF rocks my socks(ankle guard)

2008-09-07T00:04:00.004+08:00

Paiseh this is the only pic i can find.. thanks to Chejian =] you did an excellent job :D

Oh and get well soon Nat! Rubber boys dun get injured easily (x

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Final decision: Perform.. Quote from jiaolian: die die nevermind :)

But my parts lacked burst and wasn't fierce enough. I was distracted.. my mind raced before the performance and I swear I tried my best to clear it.

I've admit that my resolve always fluctuates and sometimes I become super decisive (wad u call 绝情) den sometimes I become a weakling. I look down on myself =\

Okay bakk to the performance.. I heard some ppl murmuring my name when I came out for the ji ti xD "wonders who? Own up kay? :D" Den many cheered when I kicked woonyang's butt >.< Haha! Yuhui told me it was damn comical.. haha my idea leh =)! Okay lar we did rather gd this round. From today's experience I must say that jiaolian really loves us a lot! <3 you too, jiaolian! And.. get well soon Enyi =] Dun injure yourself next time le lar!!

Had a drink with Cai after the performance.. to sorta 借酒消愁. I got rather tipsy and my face turned super red. According to gayzi I smelt of alcohol x.x Went for mass dance after that I must say what really bonds us is the songs cause we get to hold our frens and express our care for them through the lyrics.. nothing beats that man. Well done Councilors :D

Okay pics nxt time.. if there is any taken :X

MY fking right ankle

2008-09-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

My ankle has not recovered =|

Now what?? Should I perform? I hate to make decisions.. esp those that affects others de (well who doesn't?)

Damn.. negative thoughts are racing through my mind now. I keep imagining how I'll screw up and sit on the carpet and cry like a baby !@#$% Shit la

Ankle guard.. never use before.. will it really lessen the pain? I shall give it a try tomorrow. All the best to myself. 在这种时刻，我才发现，我唯一能信任的人就是我自己。 I trust myself to make the right decision tomorrow =/

I need slp now... I need to recover! Gonna pump all my powers into healing it tonight :| God bless me tomorrow!

Pre-FOS stress

2008-09-03T15:37:00.003+08:00

I'm falling sick.. rahhh I'm gonna go sch tomorrow for consult no matter wad! Weakness go away, shooooo!!!

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My ankle is almost alright le... thanks for ur care, teachers frens and ... everyone! :D

I wan perform!! I dun wan screw up :x
I wan play for 6G on FOS and win champs..

>< I've got a feeling that if I perform on Sat I may further damage my ankle.. den I won't be able to play on FOS le! :( Howhowhow?!?

When I study the teams from other classes.. the more I research the more I think our team isn't that strong. Oh man there are only 3 in the current team who are enthu about FOS and our class only have 5 good players.. which means we have no reserves =/

I'm wondering which 2 to pick and train :S

"someone volunteer himself.. pretty pls?"

lalala.. mug first bah xD

4D@2007

2008-08-31T22:26:00.002+08:00

I bring you.. 4D@2007 with our dearest form teacher: 刘老师! <3 everyone

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

away for mugging

2008-08-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

I sprained my ankle today!! :( Somemore its after the rehersal ended lar! I feel so dumb..

Now I'll focus on healing it and I'm gonna chiong my Chem and Physics revision le! =]

Another day to celebration

2008-08-29T22:37:00.003+08:00

Happy teacher's DAY!!! =)

I was late for school today cause I woke up at 8 today. I went at 9.30 because I thought we need to submit econs which I did till 1 last night. Managed to catch the MAD performance but missed ge fang's :(

Had OCIP meeting and I have a feeling that its gonna be quite fun =] We were told to do some research on Shanghai.. lol nice one I bet few people will do lar. I went back to high school with the 4D ppl after that. Saw Ms Pek (still Ms.. haii), Mrs Seck, Mr Tan, Mr Sim, Ms Yap and and Liu Lao Shi!!!! =) Around 20 ppl turned up and we went as a class, so bonded right? :D

Went to eat, play cards etc.. and I freaking slept from 5 to 8!!! What a pig I am lar x.x And I had this super strange dream of my 2 kids and I trapped on a snow capped mountain den I was telling them not to fall asleep at all costs. Suddenly my mind blanked and my past flashed past my brain as I fell into a deep slumber. Several of the angels that have appeared in my life came to say gdbye.. den I woke up.

The stupid bball court no lights today then played in the dark.. and someone got injured cause of a series of happenings: crossover-screen-screener turn-I turn-crossoverer attempt breakthrough-I tap ball-screener fall-trip crossoverer-crossoverer fall-I fall --> 就是这么偶然 xD Talked a load of shit with the ppl and I think what they've said is extremely true.. hmph >:( its makes the whole world sound so materialistic and depressing lar!

Tmr's rehersal 1 and I hope my ham string is not gonna ache and I can do the falling part properly :S And woonyang we better meet up someday to train our coordination.. screw up and I'll really kick ur ass ><

Haii I miss rugby!!! I hate mugging for promos, cause its feels weird to suddenly turn muggerish when you've been playing cards everyday after school :x

A pic from RSAF visit...
We like boys... esp ppl with "for show" muscles cause they're hot and yet weak to bondage! =P

Okay lar I think I should still mug, lame =.=''' Current mood: sian Sian SIAN

No subject post

2008-08-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

Saw this somewhere so i decided to complete it.. the results are very surprising indeed =]

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haha i'll take that with a load of salt man... ><

Fuck

2008-08-25T20:19:00.002+08:00

Damn

The word that describes my day.

我亲眼目睹你对着我边痛诉边流泪.. 那一幕是多么得让人寒酸呀. :'( 也许你不知道，你今天所说的一切已无声地将我那拼了命而忘却不了死去的曾经一点一点的挖了出来. 哥呀，要振作, 从新找回自己. 虽然我多次提醒过你世上有更多值得你去呵护的人而你总以你那句："爱一个人最重要是忠心"讲我说得哑口无言. 你以为我不知忘记一个泥深爱的人士多难吗? 我们男人就是这样, 明知她与我之间不会有结果但总是依赖着那渺小而又仅剩的希望和信念存活着，坚持着. 你说得对，忠心的确是最重要的，就聘你这颗赤红的爱心，我挺你到底. 就算失败了我还是会用我那老话安慰你："天涯何处无芳草？" =)

Why did i choose to post in Chinese? Because Chinese is the only language where such thoughts can be properly expressed.. only those who have posted will understand

Crappy day in sch

2008-08-22T22:19:00.003+08:00

Haha, I am retarded..

I am damn bored in school today. Painful reminders of my past has left me emotionally naked and my face totally became Jay-like for the entire day. I fell asleep during math.. ha.. and "my" new ARES pullover got goped!!! ROAR and I became more gloomy for the rest of the day. Usually I wun be so stingy but but there is something different today so I guess I'm sorry if you got a cold shoulder from me today :(

Played hearts today, found it rather interesting.. and wads more interesting is how someone can be so caring towards someone even while playing cards. xD Oh and I saw like 4 couples in school today, all damn sweet lar!!! Yay sweet scents everywhere =D

Its soon gonna be holidays but I dun feel any relaxed. Pressure's building up and I am damn worried for physics and math.. I should go mugging more often =/ Anyone interested in mugging sessions tgt?? ;-)

I wan an Ipod!!! so i can listen to the beautiful melodies and fall asleep when lectures get too boring :X

This post is getting crappy.. and i seriously ran out of things to blog (my memory is failing me again) =_= lalala

Shuaiqi...

2008-08-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

The past few days has been extremely tiring..

I should be doing GP compre but oh wells.. I'll make this a short post ^o)

Getting praised by others is not always good cause for people like me I dun think I deserve those beautiful words. But I still have to thank you lar CS, it did boost my ego by a little :D.. just a little >.< Oh and I am really not good looking, so you should pour your words on lixiang instead (cause i think he needs them more than I do) xD

I still think some people in this school are dangerous.. paranoid me.. and they are damn freaky esp when...... Nvm it doesn't matter as long as they don't annoy me.

Nowadays many people's been telling me I like to give the emo (expressionless) face. I think I do look very hostile in that look but too bad I think its the most suitable expression for me so too bad if you find it scary, lalala

Shuaiqi...

Spirit of Olympism

2008-08-13T22:18:00.003+08:00

I think I enjoy my current state of life, semi JC semi sec 4.. Its like I can study really hard when I need to and I'm able to participate in every activity I'd have went for as a JC me. Sounds really confusing.. but you juz have to know that I love what I have now:)

Grats on China for hosting such a successful opening! I muz say I've enjoyed every moment of the ceremony cause its like.. I am still a Chinese although officially I'm already a Singaporean.. and I bet share the same excitement as any other Chinese around the world.. it holds an especially deep meaning for every Chinese around the world! =]

And happy be-lated 43th Birthday to Singapore! :D It feels extremely weird to say that cause this is my first time wishing Singapore a happy bdae as a Singaporean >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><3 Singapore :D

Sooooooo many happened and I'm juz too lazy to blog abt it.. seems like ppl would rather see your thoughts rather than your actions on online diaries. Ha, I've got loads of thoughts but I'm too lazy to share that too >< another time bah.. when I get pics on GEMs!

My hair is still standing aft spamming shampoo.. all thanks to Fanli.. who took the effort to play around with my hair using Maf's wax. "she felt clay wasn't enough and it was fun" =.= lalala I dun think I need any clay tmr liao.

Byebye! <3

My past is dark and gloomy.. and I'm gonna make my future more colourful!

2008-08-06T21:56:00.006+08:00

Let me talk about that I reflected about myself today - My past

I can still remember how I used to emo whenever I was defeated.. that would be when I sit alone between the steps and promise myself I wouldn't be such a weakling, and I'll win with pride the next time.. My dad used to say that was wrong cause we are all humans not god.. and my reply would be that I believe piaing will bring me closer to the point of becoming god-like. As you can see, I was very insolent and innocent last time. What I'd always wanted was to remove my limiter so I can soar!

My heart would be swallowed by the devil occasionally when my desire to becoming stronger overshadows everything, which includes my morals.. then I will commit sins and regret like an ass after everything. Haii.. I should really apologise to everyone whom I offended last time. Forgive me for my dense nature.. my negligence and my recklessness :'( I juz wasn't gd enuff

Ok, time to change the atmosphere.

As for today,
I got back my Physics lecture.. 20/33.. sian!!! :( One missing square resulted in an 8 marks loss, WTS man! I should seriously stop complaining like an immature kid man.. as if I don't know crying over spilled milk is useless.. Urggghhhh =(

I've found back a bit of my old self - the guy who pias whenever he feels he isn't gd enough (often). I hope this is gd because I really want to get stronger and better so that I can raise my head high when I walk (yes I meant walk as in walking). Promos are edging closer man.. My stress is growing and I predict I'll survive it with gd grades (juz joking nia).. a pass in everything is gd enough! =D

我讨厌面对冷肩..

为什麽爱上你的人是我... emo boys n girls!

2008-08-04T21:17:00.003+08:00

In love with 曹格!!! I am Gay!!! Yea GAY!!!! XD

沉默玩具

变成一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限期
模糊我自己
不愿升上白旗
输了你的游戏
你和他对街拥抱我看到
为什麽爱上你的人是我
为什麽一厢情愿的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
爱上你需要那真情意
收在日记里

寂寞天天不休息
让甜蜜全也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
还是你需要那真情意

真爱你的人会难过
为什麽对你舍不得总是我
还是你需要那真情意
收在日记里

The part after 爱上你, 需要那真情意 AH~~~ - the falsetto is damn nice!!! :)))

Oh my.. its been 2 years since I last fell in love with this song and now the love is reignited!! Nice songs aren't only made up of nice melodies but meaningful lyrics too! =)

Okay.. I'll write some words of encouragement for our dear CS. Cheer up man, I don't know if talking to you helps but I really support you and don't give up easily! You've put in so much that you may not have realised that you are actually killing yourself in the process but you do stand a greater chance than anyone you know??

"Love transcends everything else" so believe in yourself, don't give up so easily on yourself when everyone hasn't given up on you! :D

(oops what I've just said is in sharp contrast with the song lyrics and I swear I didn't mean it. I really found the lyrics meaningful -which means its a super good emo song!)

A battle's coming... its gonna be totally different from here onwards

2008-08-02T22:41:00.004+08:00

I just started my service at a new church.. cool place!!! Its freaking big lar. Father John Paul is damn nice, although he looks a bit monkey-ish (he is damn nice okay?!) I've got to meet many new church mates today.. thanks to Michael aka Tianye! You've seriously got a cute nick leh.. so you better think of one for me! :D I've decided that I'll go to the somerset church when I'm free but when there is a test in the coming week I think I go the St Mary one.. sorry HC buddies! ='(

Rugby gym training is gonna pump my chest muscles up man! MY chest is freaking aching like @#$ n my fren told me soon it'll grow muscle.. YEA!!! Train hard guys, we'll improve as a team and win as a team de =)

Watched Dark Knight with zupeng last night and I totally enjoyed it man! I personally think the highlight of show(non-spoiler): Convict on boat acting as if he want detonate the bomb den he threw the trigger out of the boat and went to a corner to emo. Damn CUTE lar! haha.. the movie is not only about high tech. weapons (although they are freaking cool) but about moral issues. It made me reflect a lot cause I'm those kind who will put myself into the character's shoes and I'll think about what choice I'll make..

For those who haven't watch this movie.. you should really try free up one day and check it out! 9/10 for this excellent superhero thriller! :D

I'm going to mug chem non stop tomorrow and own in debate on Monday! :) WCLK.. you said that we should be on our guards cause all 骄兵s 必败.. I'll prove to you that the situation is 知己知彼百战百胜 :)

Enjoy the calm before the storm.. next week is going to be extremely busy so hang tight my dear Friends! My commitments are stacking up and I think I am ready so bring it on man! I'll beat the heck out of You, pressure! x.x

Okay.. its time for me to sleep. byebye!!! <3

Rugby is <3

2008-07-31T20:56:00.003+08:00

Hi guys! :D

I should be doing math tutorial now but who cares.. =.=

I officially joined Rugby liao! yea! Feels damn weird to have 2 sports CCAs but who cares man. I really like the training today.. trained passes, learned tackling and play touch. I scored my first point!!! Damn ecstatic now :)

School is seriously damn boring.. all the lectures are starting to sound like some chanting and I keep falling asleep after 20 min into a lecture :X Oh man, I've got so many areas to catch up on lar! I think i better change church or else the traveling time of 2 hours will simply kill me.. sorry church buddies ='(

I'm starting to feel the stress coming upon me as promos get closer.. don't know if i should transit into the full force mugging state now. It may be too late.. Haizzzz I detest promos, you suck you suck!!! Okay, I sound damn childish.. I'll mug like some jiao after trainings stop =) and I'll pwn you! xD

Never lol to PROMOS! (lol = person with raised hand up to surrender)

Ok.. enough of the lame stuffs le.. i go do Hw le!
Rugby n Wushu are <3!

filler

2008-07-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

I am being over friendly to people so do I 回到过去??

Crazy..

亲自送到你的面前

2008-07-24T22:53:00.006+08:00

Originally performed by: 张雨生

蝴蝶結

烫金的滚边　墨绿的绒面
对称的折线　贴紧中间的圆
搁置在角边　不怎么显眼
却让我惊艳　气质的特别
看了一眼又看了一眼
总是不能忘记那一种感觉
转过一圈再转过一圈
终于还是回到玻璃橱窗前
电话的那边　啜泣与哽咽
情感在翻飞　逃不过伤悲
握在手里面　话已到嘴边
静默又吞灭　最后一丝机会
看了一眼又看了一眼
总是不能忘记那一种感觉
转过一圈再转过一圈
终于还是回到玻璃橱窗前
想把手上这个蝴蝶结　亲自送到你的面前
别在秀发间　然而现在这个蝴蝶结
却静静躺在心灵的深渊　再也不会
别在你鹅黄衣领边

Here is the most imba voice (i think so.. and u better agree ><)
蝴蝶結-卓義峰

(I think the line, "亲自送到你的面前" is damn imba.. rephrase: fking IMBA)

A million thank yous to harry... u revived my interest in 卓義峰.. His album in August is now a must buy for me!!! Everyone support Support SUPPORT! :D

I <3 yet carn

2008-07-19T22:47:00.010+08:00

Posting in Chinese is ~~not~~ emo..

不知为什么最近很烦，每天起床不是不爽就是空虚.. damit

I've lost control of my mind for days..

I've been quite derogatory towards many ppl these days n i really owe them an apology plus show them more respect in the future. I shld reduce my teasings n think more in other's shoes..

I may look v ebullient n insouciance but i've got a much darker side.. n it revealed itself to me on Friday. Even i was shocked by how angry i got when Hanwen niaoed my eyesight n Ahtong made a remark on my singing.. Efforts frm trying to suppress my sian diao mood (which i haf nicknamed as inner hollow =.= ) haf completely gone down the drain.. n i'm v guilty dat i actually felt damn shuang n proud of myself aft venting my anger on them

How??? I dun wan become someone controlled by my hormones.. i haf to regain my sanity n be my normal zealous xyy! God bless me.. this is the first time i'm asking smthing frm u, u wun reject me wun u?? =)

<3 on fire for u Jesus!

__________________________________________________

Haiz.. i'm feeling damn guilty for killing a cockroach juz now. I'll pray for u, 小强, 祝你早日投胎做人! (做人很好 meh?)

K, show time!!! I've got negative demerits!

Oh btw the most recent demerit is the one where i escaped the spot check! =) Aint u juz so proud of me?

I dunno how many of my readers believes in horoscopes but i'm someone who reads them daily. It may sound childish but its really fun! The horoscope for singles always goes: dun be jealous over couples canoodling.. treasure ur time as a single who has the freedom to do all u wan. Horoscopes for couples goes: tolerate ur honey's strange habits as they may be an oddball but they r ur oddball! Power struggles are never desirable.. I find them useful in preparing me for a real steady relationship nxt time albeit the repetitive nature of those few replicated sentences.

May consider changing blogskin soon if my dear visitors still face the difficulty of accessing my blog.. removed the Imeem alr but doesn't seem to help leh..

Ending off with a quote frm someone: Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift!

Okay gdnight everyone! <3

Topicless

2008-07-18T22:43:00.003+08:00

Haf a look at my econs essay comments..

lol... lame conclusion (WTH)

Screw blocks man..

I twisted my ankle again.. during bball again, which is kinda expected cause i had weights training with the rugby ppl n how the ** can i play bball aft dat! L:OL

i'll make gd use of this weekend to revise n catch up! Jiayou to myself..

Tyco shiz

2008-07-17T22:40:00.003+08:00

Ehh damn sry to those hu called me today!!! =(((

I totally daoed my phone today n it ran out of bat..

I'm always get this feeling dat i look damn stupid whenever i step into sch.. weird.

The hair n attire spot check failed to catch me again.. yes again.. n the opportunity cost was reaching sch on time. I oso dunno y i always wake up late when there is spot check on dat day.. damn tyco ;) Wdv man.. i haf many merits to help clear the demerits soon =) This is the 3rd time the spot check failed to catch me.. wad the hell lar.

Juz saw the smb msg saying negative demerits will be reset to 0. Haha shuyan u'll be damn sad man... -21 demerits leh!!! I feel sad for u.

I shld really start mugging b4 its too late.. hell to blocks n lets face promos!!! =D

原谅我

2008-07-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

原谅我　必须假装爱错
别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口

原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛
别无所求　彻底忘了我
爱原来有舍得

我爱过　我才懂

原谅我的不足，我的无能，你和我是不会幸福的。不是你不好，你很完美，是我不配..

If its fate dat i'll live to regret not believing i'm gd enuff n treasuring the opportunity den so be it.. my life was never meant to be perfect :')

穿越红尘的悲欢惆怅
和你贴心的流浪
刺透遍野的青山和荒凉
有你的梦伴着花香飞翔
今生因你痴狂
此爱天下无双
剑的影子水的波光
只是过往是过往

Forget n carry on with life..

Happy happy annoying day

2008-07-14T21:51:00.010+08:00

Ok time for a summary of my block results:

DDSSS

Its S house!!! OMG!!! =.=

The only thing i'm happy abt is dat i din get U for phy.. well wdv man, i'll start mugging for Promos n i aim for a BBBBC.

Stupid rain stupid rain go away.. rain=wet floor=noball=T.T

Erm owned some guys today aft the floor dried.. okay lar it wasn't cause we pro but they noob XD

And heres the pics of the funky shoes of brotherhood! =)

random arrangement

side by side

side view

my gd buddy! Zupeng! =)

haha dats all byebye <3

overwhelming sianness

2008-07-11T23:28:00.004+08:00

Sian - the only word i felt in sch today.. n i am overwhelmed by it

Met Chejian on my way to sch this morning. "we were both late" n we both had econs so we talked n i realised i haf a really damn nice 大哥. 3 cheers for Chejian!! :D

Had math (which i paid 120% of my attention) n got bk my GP compre aft dat. 26/50. To many in my class it was a gd grade but i beg to differ. Although i noe i screwed my compre like some jiao but anything below 30 is a firm cannot accept. Well i hope my compo can get a 34? LOL... i muz be dreaming again

DAMN SIAN LAR!!! Y carn i walk like other normal ppl? ='( It sux to be unable to get down stairs without the railings. I feel like a crippled! N the way i walk was called posing too.. wtf lar, i carn even walk properly how to pose? Y am i always called a flirt, playboy, poser? I dun noe 1/2 as many gals as most ppl do, i dun go ard cheehonging like some toot, i dun cheat gals' feelings n i dun haf the looks/body to pose!!! ROAR

Had no trainings today but carn go gym with the rugby guys either cause its simply impossible for me to gym any further with the whole body feeling so damn sore. X.X owned..

Maybe.. i said maybe.. i shld listen to yuhui n stop playing bball for a while to let my muscles heal. Somemore its damn not shuang to play with certain ppl cause they fking like to solo n make the team lose last min.. no naming of names here. Shld haf won all 4 matches today den in the end won only 2.. diao

Mood- chao sian.. someone salvage me frm this sianess pls

An update out of nowhere

2008-07-10T22:29:00.004+08:00

I juz realised my previous post was saying i'll post a pic of my roasted face on the blog.. sadly my face is black alr, haha no more roasted tomato le. =)

I felt damn sian today.. right frm the moment i stepped into sch. The weather was damn "nice", much to my chagrin.. n i nearly fell down 6+ times today cause my brain was totally filled with the words: sian... wth... =.=... cheebong etc. LOL how silly lar! Slpt thr 1/4 of the 2hrs of chem lab/tutorial n felt really guilty of it so i finished math 9c aft dat.. Screwed Phy SPA cause i lost my pencil (to my astonishment) n i had no idea how it can disappear when i was using it juz before the SPA during Chem lecture. x.x So I had all the other things except an empty graph paper. XD Ha wdv lar, heck mock SPA!

Today was a reflective day for me too. I shall not get into any unnecessary relationships in JC no matter wad (unless its fate lar).

"The bak part is so damn redundant aint it?"

Well i think its not gd to be extreme so ya. 1 major factor for such a decision is cause i think whoever's my gf (no matter who) deserves someone better lar.. i haf no looks, no grades, no future, not nice etc. Yea so dats y.. plus plus plus i haf many supporters! Singles ftw!!!

As for my blocks, my grades changed to S n S, which means i'll juz haf to pray n beg for phy now!!! haha, oh nos, how can i be so happy when i am getting bak GP tmr? Recent convos with my GP tcher isn't gd enuff for me to tell how (badly) i did. -.- Wdv.. i'll juz save my tears for tmr when i finally see a U.

I'll finally get bak my fav coach LI JIAO LIAN!!!! I'm gonna fall in <3 with wushu once again! The flip side of this is dat trainings r getting tougher n my legs r aching like some jiao lar.. haha i shall quit complaining abt wushu cause this "small" amt of suffering aint NEVER enuff to stop me frm bballing! =)

Bball matches these 2 days were like sai cause i carn run 1/2 as fast as i used to lar.. only stand there shoot like some toot. As the saying goes: practise makes perfect, my shooting improved. :D But den again.. i feel dat this is still not gd enuff n i aint prepared for FOS yet. Muz work harder n learn new techniques (like dunking =DDD).

K i shall update more often... with pics (hopefull)! <3

Sabb-Block result-bball post

2008-07-03T23:05:00.004+08:00

OK since harry requested for an update i shall do it before my deadline.. LOL

Sabbs were fun, i knew many ppl inside so it wasn't awkward at all. Special thanks to ppl like jieyang chester edward marianne jon yeo shi xuan yumei etc for making it a gd course for me =)

Man i muz upload a pic of my roasted face tmr lar... its juz like a tomato lar!!! Ok, i shall tell whoever thats gonna ask me wad happened dat i am blushing cause he/she is damn hot.. XD Hopefully the skin dun peel off or else i'll start to look like i ate cornflakes. =/

Oh man i freaking failed my chem paper lar... 2 marks to a S. That makes me the 2nd highest U in my class... grats to shengkun for being the first... LOL. I seriously wonder how did our chem rep. get 90+ lar. Lady luck muz really like her man. I hope, pray n beg dat i can get at least a S for physics cause i heard 2 Us for blocks n ur parents will be informed. OH man, juz imagine the amt of kaobeing u get if u dio 2 U lar. Horrible..

I wanted to go down to shoot a few shots this afternoon but it turned out the ppl there wanted a full court game of 6 v 6. 无缘无故 joined them. Our team the coordination damn gd, played two matches of 11 points. We won both with the score of 11-5 & 11-3. There were gals so i din really go for the rebounds but i made 4 steals n scored a total of 9 points n ard 7 assists. Played 3 v 3 among my teammates den i got a team where i was the only forward. At first we were losing like 6-0 in a 7 point game. Lol, den i meng diao made 1 shot n scored 5 in a row. The prc ended the game with his brilliant ally (which is an assist from me lar! haha). Totally owned this afternoon. Learnt many skills from Abul while playing on his team so now i am damn GAY (happy)! =)

As for now i only hope for my knee to recover so i can do a 2 legged dunk in the JC courts. Bball ftw man!

<3

Xinjiang trip

2008-06-26T22:36:00.019+08:00

Hey hey hey, update le update le!!!

K i shall write a 记叙文 on it!

记叙一件让你难忘的旅行

I left for xinjiang on .. ehh wait i left for beijing on 7th July 2008. Reached Xinjiang on 8th July. =D

Y is it called xin jiang?? Explaination frm tour guide: 新字没啥好解释的所以请把注意放在疆字上。别看这疆字笔画多，它里边的学问却不少，右手旁的三横代表着新疆的三座高山，帕米尔高原，天山，昆仑山，两个田字代表着南疆的草原和北疆的塔克拉玛沙漠而正因为地形的摆设而形成的字，专属新疆用。弓字旁代表着边界线而外面的一个土字说明了当年所失去的中国土地，它象征着中华人民对于失去土地的悲痛。一个字融合历史和地理所构思而成，实在是绝！

I shall post pics on a day by day order. =)

First day in Urumuqi(乌鲁木齐): My first of 2 days dat allowed me connection to rest of the world. X.X So i made gd use of time watching youtube n chatting on MSN. =) The 5 star hotel was gd.. haha at least i haf a gd time slping in the living room!

Second day: went into the desert n saw some wild donkeys on the way.. which made the aunties frm the tour super excited ._. Arrived at this super ulu hotel which is the only one in dat huge desert. Monopoly lor.. so the service like sai. haha. Got this uber cool auto mahjong table so i played like siao that night. o.O

So lonely..

the buddy dat nearly ate me XD

The place where i lived.. i aint muslim pls!

Third day: Went to this 火烧山 place where the hills were burnt millions of years ago? LOL i really dunno how to describe that place in English. Blame me.

i look weird.. eh?

introing u to this beautiful scenery! =)

now remove dat ugly shit.. =)

retards always do retarded things... i was quite close to falling down wor! =( dangerous seh

our nice tour guide risking his life to help someone pick up her hat!

笨小孩发呆

dats how i went up that hill... 飞檐走壁

told u i can fly liao...

big hole in the moutain... with some retard standing there thinking he damn cool

Fourth day: Went to this kanasi (sounds like kanasai right?) nature reserve.. quite similar to jiu zhai gou so i think it was rather nice lor.

acting cool aka posing

posing again..

this aint posing... i was thinking abt smthing - most likely The law of diminishing marginal returns
that night the grp went some roadside stores to snack... den my mom go argue with my dad over smthing... den i sian diao so i went bak n daoed everything aft dat. Oh my mugging started today! =) Econs ftw

Fifth day: Went up the mountain at kanasi nature reserve... i broke that tour guides past tour records by reaching the top in err 10 min? Ran like siao.. improved the previous record by 15 min.. LOL

poserrrrr

ard 1/3 of the total distance

my second time down that place...

do i resemble someone? :P

its not porn.. not porn

emo freak

my first pic smiling

6th day: went off to ke la ma yi.. in some place called bo le. Went to mo gui cheng.. but its not scary so i juz skipped dat part. =.=

fell asleep standing

still carn help feeling sad for myself T.T

7th day: stayed in ke la ma yi. Mugged on the bus n went to see this place with weird stones, ehh??? weird..

a eager was in the air n i tried to shoot it down with a stone

脚踏实地

7th day: Went another lake... this time much bigger!!! oh, n this place called fruit smthing but got no fruits at all lar.. scammed me!!! HMPH!

big n small sheep

this is L

I broke into the mansion

8th day: went to the plains for horse riding... err xin diao cannot gallope a lot :(

sian diao go play with sheep

blew my hair up!!!

posing aft the ride

9th day: Another horse ride on our way to ba yin bu lu ke... some da cao yuan again. The morning ride was damn freaking cold lar! Muddy somemore..

another horse ride.. but with lots of galloping!! shiok

我相信我就是我...

Err no sight seeing for the nxt two days cause they are filled with travelling frm one place to another n shopping. Lol, n i realised i din even spend 1/4 of all the money i brought there. >.>

At Beijing

i am the olympic torch holder... juz a bit too big?

鸟巢

not the nicest... wait till night nxt time bah

Ok... so aft the trip was Blocks!!!! Wow.

Although it was a very boring trip with loads of sight seeing, my interactions with the ppl in China made me learn a lot. =) Learnt to interact with all the 50+ ppl in my tour grp but i muz say it was really boring to be the only teenager inside. Grew more aware of the darkness of the society and had to learn certain lessons in the most embarrassing way. Totally sux cause i had no common language with anything except my notes! :( Returning to Beijing was a gd move cause i discovered that China is still way behind catching up as a civilised world even though She's organising the Olympics, the developments arn't as fast as wad they reported n the ppl there r juz as vulgar x.x

Gd luck for promos to everyone, hope blocks served as a 警钟. (yes i am trying to catch up with my chinese) =D

Blocks

2008-06-23T22:12:00.001+08:00

I hate my new haircut... but no choice... wait one week shld be nicer bah haha -.=

Blocks started... i think i screwed econs but who cares. K byebye, the nxt time i blog i shall upload pics taken in xinjiang. =)

Long long once update

2008-06-07T17:41:00.002+08:00

Oops... shi* I realised i havn posted since May24th (unless u consider may26th dat one as even a post XD). Okok time to update le.

Some songs... still touches me after listening for years.

知足 - 五月天 (no singer)

Harmoc concert was quite nice (yes i noe its damn long ago) and i totally enjoyed it lar. I got to noe a different side of caishuai cause he was sitting beside me throughout the concert n we talked abt nearly everything dat happened this year.. haha! Go cai! I still rmber how retarded i was when lixiang n i kept shouting "go hongye", "hongye i <3 u" >.< (note: hongye is a male xD) yuhui! =)

Then i went for band concert with.. erm.. yuqin, oon beng, joanna (OG29), shuyan (6G), jonneo, van n jinxiang. Haha, met up with yiyi yongjie n yaze aft the concert to gif them flowers n choc (oops did i say flowers?). Wah my qian bao big hole liao lar.. keep gng concerts! x.x

The start of hols marked the start of my slacking, mapling n mugging. I mapled almost everyday frm 5 days ago lar n i think i wasted at least 50+ hours on it liao. T.T But i quite statisfied lar.. since my damage nearing 10k alr. =) Assaulter reaching 50k soon wor!

There, my CB aka chief bandit. Shuai right? :D (ehh the mana a bit high hor? LOL)

Oh yar, hope u like me, shuyan n angela's present, CAI! =) Shuai. Happy 18th be-lated birthday wor! :DDD

Oh man i am flying off to beijing tonight.. :( i dun wanna leave!!! T.T Have to bring lots of notes on the way to mug.. boooooooooo. In dat case i will score well for blocks! :')

Bye everyone! <3

Touching story

2008-05-26T14:27:00.003+08:00

Saw this on Friendster bulletin

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.

Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 persons left in this world without any special someone in our lives.

Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.

Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.

Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the

following weeks..

DAY 1:

They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.

DAY 4:

They went to the beach & had a picnic... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.

DAY 12:

Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scared

and she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed..

DAY 14:

They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The

fortune teller said: 'My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily.' Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:

Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something.

DAY 28:

They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.

DAY 29:

11:37 pm

Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..

Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.

Daniel: Wait for me...

20 minutes later... a stranger approached Jasmine.

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.

11:57pm

The doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.

Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.

Jasmine read the letter which says:

Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you.. your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my

life. I love you, Jasmine...

Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted..

'Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me

Then the clock strikes 12

Daniel's heart stop pumping

THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY...

************************************************************************************

Always love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of

everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...

Do cherish the time tgt..

Touching story plus nice MV =)

Birthday thanks!

2008-05-24T22:35:00.007+08:00

Oh great, think all 到齐了!

I would like to say a big Thank YOU to these ppl:

Cai shuai
Han wen
Yu wei
Cheryl
Linette
Angela
Eileen
Joanna
Junyang
Yanjun
Lee qi
Tian ye
Yilina
Zu peng
Sun shuo
Renxuan
Tzin wai
Harry
Jacky
Yu hui
Vanessa
Sidney
Jinxiang
David
Mengxiang
Lixiang
Yu rong
Xin yi
Sheila
Valencia
Valerie
Reginia
Munyan
Lisa
Kiat boon
All members of OG 29!
All 08S6G fellow classmates!
Ms June!
& my parents!

thanksthanksthanksthanksthanksthanks for all ur lovely sms, present, words of well wishes and songs!

Thanks to yiyi yongjie tym n kanzy for the super spastic bdae song.
The OG gals for the really nice bdae song!
Not forgetting Joanna n eileen for the pencil case n the BOXERS... spastic! lol.
Thanks to zupeng for the handphone pouch n the havaianas slippers.
Thanks to OG for the "bdae cake", LOL.
Thanks to ms june for "the thing".
Thanks to my mom for the erm... CASH?
Eh n the CT's bdae cake which was shared among angela-caishuai n me! (note the use of the "dash")
Thanks to lixiang for ur "treat" but i dun think i need it lar XD, ur words r gd enuff.
Ehh thanks to Jie n valerie for ur promised presents. =D

Ok if i forgot anyone pls kill me. x.x

Pics... random:

in lurfe with his new shoes

Ehh wad to say ms koh? Height? lol

Family tree of 08S6G! Wangzhuo n hongye are gay? WTF?

Ms june twiting!

Gp class photo: 2 L(s) sitting at the side

Watashi & geper

For the April May n June babies.. exclusively!!

ehh... no comments

scene one: caishuai with the cake

scene two: my gosh where did it go???

shuaiqi.. toking abt the one on the left lar

i swear... someone was trying to take the ppl at the back!

the best of frens... cs n i.

class gay... lixiang n chester

a closer view... "note his hand"

diao... i think this person needs no further intro

k i suk at posing..

forget abt the person infront... look at the one at the back!!! (not mrs yap)

Gdbye Mrs Yap! miss u :'( sobs

find me

april aka 13... most 帅 in the class

spastic!

Oh yar i haf to say this.. Dujing arh, my hair isn't dat legendary as wad u said lar haha, it does change shape when i perspire but i brush it up often so it seems to stay unchanged. Lol. Thanks for ur compliments as well, i'll continue to put in my best as a P.E. rep.! =)

Saw this on some astrology website

Taurus

Something or someone is making you kind of crazy -- get away from that situation quickly! If you let it go on too long, you might snap and say something really mean.

I think i saw this too late though.. cause i haf already changed my attitude towards someone ~~and dat person is not gonna get something nice frm me again.. ever! (I swear.. so u gun)~~ Ehh i think i'll give her another chance then, dun disappoint me wor.

SS's maple private server had all its characters lvled to 200 so its like damn sian now cause we overtook yandao n theres really nthing left to see le. Maple sux... revenge taken! >.< U* suck! (n) boooooo...
*yandao's current form

Ok i shall divert frm games cause its mugging time now! =.= Err, i think i performed relatively well this term. I din fail.. i din get last... in fact i got a few top in class.... but most imptly is dat i din mug as much as others! lol... i shant zihigh on my blog. Ok, i thank lord for providing me the strength to get past each test n score with flying colours! Ahmen.

Dio owned in 3 on 3 charity matches ytd. Haha we won only 1 match out of the 4. Got 2 matches we could haf won but din.. sian. I was totally off form cause i was juz shooting for the first two matches. I injured myself on the third match when we leading den aft dat it became a 2 v 3 match so we dio owned. Haiz... I went on fire only when playing the second half of the last match against wangzhuo's team. Got past Edward 4 times n shot 1 shot in. Wads most funny is dat everyone tot i was gonna get 盖 when i went for the net with Edward beneath it so everyone juz shouted gai4 but den i, who is like haf a fucking brain to think, released the ball earlier/switched hand (for another layup) so i din get gaied... LOL

Still lost in the end cause the other team go waste time when we chased up frm 0-10 to 7-11. Haha, i shall accept this peacefully since all of my teammates were injured so even if we played on we'll surely lose. XD Btw, gd job guys! =)

Now my ankle is swollen n i carn run while playing bball alr. Neverless i still pwned during today's match in my neighborhood court. I was juz walking ard n passing but our teamwork was superb n the 2m dude wasn't our 对手 at all haha! Shooting FTW. x)

Birthday of the greatest owner

2008-05-18T17:13:00.006+08:00

This video is extremely sad... The MV is basically abt the gal getting pregnant n her dad chased the guy away n he got into an accident, which killed him. D:

The vocals are good... mv is touching, superb.

K change mood:

Hi, today is my birthday.. in case u din noe.. HAHA!

祝我生日快乐

Diao right?

ROAR! i woke up..

Wtf.. that was damn random can?

Ok i shall thank everyone on Tuesday!

*Oh btw this is the 100th post! Yeah, so qiao3 sia

Dance night

2008-05-17T23:21:00.004+08:00

Went shopping with zupeng today n bought a pair of havaianas slippers. Gosh n thanks zupeng! I totally loved ur two presents lar, u r so the freaking coolest guy on Earth lor!

Oh yar, fk my shooting now which totally suck like shit. Damn it, i only managed to regain a bit of the feeling back. I'm gonna pia shooting like crazy n shoot like kobe someday. =D

Went dance night aft dat... i found it rather.. errr.. ok. Ha, some highlights were anzai's ending pose n the Bboy instructor doing chao imba moves. Pro shizzz. The rest were juz normal lar, a bit of lack of coordination here n there. Ok, not to forget chinese dance... it was quite cool cause Joanna is like so damn zhai inside u noe. Yikun wud haf pwned all if he stayed in MAD, lol. 老九你最棒！

I totally skipped the second part of dance night to play bball. LOL. Got really hot (like i wasn't hot enough to being with) n sent caishuai off aft dat. Waited for Joanna aft the show den gave her the "flower" and sang (the highlight is the pose i sang in) and i freaking regret not doing dat in the dance room >.< Oh i muz thank hanwen n caishuai for staying with me throughout the whole dance night.

Ehh its 30 min more to some VIP's bdae wor.. wahseh cannot slp tonight le XD

Training aft gym is pwnzors!

2008-05-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

Wheee... damn tired =/

I realised dat some ppl still haf a very 孩子 look even though they r 16 or turned 17 alr. By saying child-like i mean v cute n adorable. Lol. Wonder if anyone thinks i am 12? XD

Hmm, y hesitate walking up n introing? U noe u r gd enuff dude. XD Dun juz gaze frm afar, u noe u wanna do it! =P

Ok some overdued pics taken my mex.. on Choir concert (Friday)

shuyan being super extra at the bak...

caishuai proposed! n succeeded

ehhhh y.. y do i see angela's bag?

oooh soo the shuai qi one is caring it for her. Wah so fast become slave alr ah?

K continue with today's post...

I conclude dat gym before training is crazy... n because of dat i am gonna do it everytime i train. I feel motivated for wushu so i am gonna pia it but alas... shizz.. haf to 打整套 on Friday. Kusor!

OMG yuhui is my best fren now! Haha, i carn believe u r gonna gif me that super duper special present.. omgosh i still carn believe it lor. My gosh, i am gonna seriously go crazy if u get it.. cause its like impossible lar. Budden i oso not expecting much lar so err juz take ur time n relax if u dun get it. Man.. u sure noe my needs well! Haha xD

Feels super hyper now! Thanks to niang.. oops.. yuhui! <3

happy happy day!

2008-05-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

Today is a gd day cause my CT doesn't pursue my lousy results anymore since they r improving! Haha shuang! I did well.. or rather i think i did.. for the GP compre test. I made a right choice of doing the AQ first but i din haf time to count the edited summary. D: NVM, gd enuff alr considering most ppl din finish it lor.

Paid super a lot of attention during chem lecture n i felt so intelligent aft the whole thing lar! haha XD. Got to noe my econs grades aft dat.. 12/20 ---> dun u niao me, i got 2nd in class lor! XP. Oh Caishuai dun be sad... though this is supposed to be some words of encouragement for u but i wan remind u dat grades r definitely more impt than SOME things now so i hope u dun lose ur wits.

Had maths remedial aft sch ended. Sian.. but i found out smthing damn interesting today! Ms Koh is a fan of pop music too! And and.. she noes how to rap sia! PRO. I felt like a real genius (not the hanwen kind) aft dat lor... super shiok feeling! haha xD

Played bball with Chester den i realised my shooting still sucks cause i carn adapt to the ring height n size in Hwachong. I shld really go shoot at least 100 shots everyday in the HC court.. damn it i wan make it to the team. >.<

Oh btw i saw chio bus today!!! One was when i was having lunch with the class den i sensed someone looking at my direction den upon looking up i had a shock. The other happened like 1 min aft the first.. when i was gng off. LOL, ain't i luck? =P

Choir & string Concerts

2008-05-10T22:51:00.002+08:00

Good job Choir ppl! The performance last night was totally own diao. I went with the 6G ppl n totally enjoyed the whole performance. Voices in Flight, 名不虚传! "thumbs up" :D

Yee ching! U r the pride of 6G now!!!! I bet u din realise this but... i could only hear ur voice ringing thr the whole concert hall when the sopranos were singing and ur vocal range is totally out of this world... freaking high when u were soloing! 一鸣惊人 man!

Today was string orchestra concert. Wang zhuo was damn shuai, like the most handsome among every other boy inside. 帅气 Though u were a bit fei during some of the songs (u noe why haha) but yea ur shuai qi covered up for everything. Oso saw val aka chioest among all performers. LOL hope u enjoyed ur performance as much i did. =)

Ok time to mug for phy n GP compre test nxt week le.. >.<

Emoness

2008-05-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

I feel v down today... whole body ached like siao when i woke up this morning.

Whenever this happens i look v emo n yea my everything shows.... my hair my face my walking (huh?) n i show this -_- face a 53214 times today lar! I think i look damn hostile n i'll try to smile more at everyone! :)

I kaobeied a lot too... i shld shutup frm tmr onwards (may dao u with a smile). Haiz, din i promise myself to change at all cost? Where did my confidence n determination go?? T.T

Today's a v unproductive day cause i slacked through almost everything n i carn even focus on mugging econs lar. Sure gonna do badly for tmr's test. Haiz.. depressed.. go emo lar =\

I wan havianas slippers!!!

2008-05-07T20:26:00.005+08:00

Some freak knocked his knee into my thigh n now its super pain? ==

I wun freaking wear converse again on days i wan play bball again.... never! The injury was because i carn run in my converse lar. Damn...

Went home with junyang aft gyming in high sch. We talked abt bball n i think wad he said was quite true. Whenever we play on opposing teams we tend to cause each other to under perform cause we noe almost every of each other's moves.. diao right? Then we were wondering y other's defence on us damn weak while they could nv get past us... weird???? This may sound a bit haolian but its somewhat factual.. u noe.

Diao lar.. my feet damn pain now cause the blisters burst. I seriously need to get a pair of slipper asap. I'll get my havaianas slippers nxt week.. dun wan tan lines on my leg! TANNNN

I need $$... loads of it

I think life is damn unfair for certain ppl n dat includes me. Heck wadever's gonna happen lar. Sometimes i think 6G is made for me cause i wun be so "happy" if i was in another class. In fact i feel gd to be in this class n with the nice ppl inside but...but.. sometimes its v hard to keep quiet abt certain ppl.

Sry but i haf to repeat this... this guy sucks like george bush. Ok sry i insulted bush, he is nthing u haf ever seen. An ungentlemanly bastard with disgusting looks n all the bad things u can think of under the sun ( i mean in the universe). Ok he is such an eyesore dat i juz concluded dat he isn't worth my time. He shld go die a 957246138$@!#%&^ times...

Freaky day

2008-05-06T18:25:00.006+08:00

To help those hu need some inspiration n encouragement... esp in sports

千山万水 - JAY

if u dislike the auto-play pls leave a tag so i'll edit it =)

Hmm i fked up today... in almost everything.

Had PE in the morning n i freaking lost that floor ball match. I am someone hu hates to lose no matter wads the reason... so naturally i was a bit bushuang n i ran to high sch to play bball. And the class freaking had class photo taking session at 10.40am which is 10min aft PE. I left my phone at the class bench... so sorry peeps, i carn sense ur urgency to find me. This year's yearbook wun haf me in it.... AGAIN!

Screw the shit out of both my attitude towards defeat n losing... I suck cause i freaking carn harness my spd n power into gd use on the court n i suck cause i carn control my mood whenever i lose. Shit....

Oh let me do a bit of backtrack... shall restart frm this morning before flag raising. Dunno for wad reason... when i reached the class bench n saw some of my classmates in the morning 我的火就大了. 见谁就鸟, niao until almost the whole class dio niaoed.... n i niaoed all the way frm flag raising to LT3. Den dunno why when the lecture started i like suddenly came to my senses den i realised i was being damn kaobei today. I had totally no control over myself in the morning lar... juz like 被 possessed.

Conclusion: never visit deserted tomb stones in the late of the night (see previous post for reason)

I think our PW discussions r finally getting somewhere n i do hope dat i dun freaking get a B... so pls put in some effort in it PWmates!

Oh i got smthing to bitch abt.... suddenly rmbered!

I wonder y some ppl can be so fking thick-skinned? Where the fk do they get their erotic confidence frm? I am damn disgusted by this guy... (gosh i cursed so much... dun care le lar... zam) fk the hell off this bastard hu is so fking hou4 lan3 pi2. Ok done with the bitching.

As i was searching thr youtube videos of 杨宗玮, i came across his 一了百了 so i decided to listen to the original version frm 信乐团. So i went on to listen to a few more of their songs... it brought back loads of fond memories (esp the times when i: was fascinated by their songs n powerful vocals, meng singing their songs with hanqi in Kbox). Y do they haf to disband... before i can even learn to appreciate their songs properly?

Ha go slp le... dun wan be late for sch wor. xD

Fucked up

2008-05-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today was chem test n i did rather ok for it. Most of my MCQ ans were A n Bs, plus i only got one C n a few Ds. Diao lar... gd luck to those hu put all C. LOL

Predicted to get btw 13~18... 15 i happy le wor (Low self esteem is a very common thing in HCJC). XD

Diao, i played bball this afternoon n totally own diao... but nthing to be proud of cause all quite noob except the uncles who are damn experienced. Haiz... its been so long since i enjoyed the feeling of owning. =/ One of the uncles asked me to dunk when i snatched a rebound frm him... ehh cause he perceived my jump height to be enough??? Haha, i am still 10 cm away frm a proper dunk in the standard olympics court. Haf to pia weights n nthing else if i wan achieve it by FOS. T.T cannot show off le. SIAN

I juz went to walk frm my house to bukit timah road and i went into some HDB area.... guess wad? I saw something like a cemetery n den while i was walking out i could feeling something following me.... Spooky seh. My whole body temp. juz dropped down like siao... n even the metal bars felt so warm to me.

Sian i wan a pair of slippers! =( Lalala i'll get it by the end of this month, i promise myself! =D

Bball craze

2008-05-04T15:47:00.003+08:00

Played bball till my feet dio 3 blisters sia...

I wan get tanned!!!! So i shall play at least 1 hr of bball every noon. =) Hopefully can trash ppl so i will remain happy for the rest of the day. =D

Gosh i din mug chem at all today... was doing article response the whole afternoon n i havn finish yet. Shizzz, i still haf to do mind map for portfolio... ARRGGHHHH die. PIA, ROAR!!!

T.T guitar lesson later. I need to practise before i go so as not to malu-fy myself when playing tgt. The tcher is really gd n i dun wan disappoint him so i'll practice at least 20 min everyday frm today onwards.

Dunno if i shld play bball tonight? Sian, so many hw havn finish yet y do i still wan play. Haiz, playful nature... carn be helped lar. XD

2008-05-03T22:56:00.003+08:00

I dun like to lose in any sort of bball match. Freak all losers hu caused/will be causing me to lose juz cause they carn be bothered to play their fullest. If u wan play like a fucker den get lost, bball is not for u.

Haiz... Hanyu y din u jump today? Dat fatty was so damn cheap lar. We were alr catching up n u had to leave him unguarded. If u complain of ur noobness so often den put in more effort when playing the game.

Lalala lost today but i gaied dat freaking act fast not fast guy 192974412154768 times while he tried to layup. ROAR... dun act pro boh pro infront of me lar! Reason for loss: MY shooting din work even aft practising in the afternoon! =(

I din do any work today, totally daoed everything n was stonning on MSN, bballing or practicing guitar. I muz mug tmr, i muz complete all hw by tmr n most imptly, i muz wake up early tmr (n maybe go for jogging/2.4 in the morning). Thats my plan for tmr n guess wad... i predict dat i'll juz slack away another day. XD

Hope the apollo ppl had fun for their outing today. Songs for Sunshine is seriously a damn nice name lar! wonders hu cr8ed it... pro.

ARGgggghhhhhh.... i go bath n vent abt how i lost dat damn match juz now lar! Byebye...

... shit i juz realised i got chem n econs test on Monday! Holy freak... bloody hell. X.X

DIE

The duck n the devil

2008-05-03T15:23:00.002+08:00

The Duck &the Devil

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.. He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods. He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target. Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.

As he was walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck. Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved! In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his sister watching! Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing After lunch the next day Grandma said, 'Sally, let's wash the dishes'

But Sally said, 'Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen.' Then she whispered to him, 'Remember the duck?' So Johnny did the dishes. Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, 'I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make supper.'

Sally just smiled and said, 'Well that's all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help' She whispered again, 'Remember the duck?' So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's; he finally couldn't stand it any longer.

He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck. Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, 'Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.'

Thought for the day and every day thereafter?

Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... and the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)...whatever it is... You need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing. He has seen your whole life. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.

He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.

The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets. It is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved.

Go ahead and make the difference in someone's life today. Share this with a friend and always remember:

God is at the window!

When Jesus died on the cross; he was thinking of you!

Taken frm tianye's post

Hmm how i wish i can be as forgiving as god! :D

Short n swt post

2008-05-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

I am gonna make this post short n swt!

Haha, i had fun today in sch... cleared some demerits n had OG outing but most imptly (jking only lar) i had fun seeing someone! =D

lalala lol